Fault Line (Bellarke)

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Bellamy

I thought she was beautiful, I thought she was stunning. But did any of that matter, if she was ugly inside?

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"I will be back soon, I promise," I smiled and stroked her beautiful face.

"Bell, please don't go." Julia pleaded and tears fell down her face like the rain pour. I hadn't seen rain in this barren land.

It broke my heart, but I had to go. I smiled halfhearted, my lips quivering as they closed in and touched hers.

At first, it was a soft, gentle touch but as she leaned in more, it intensified. She grasped onto my face like her life depended on it.

"Please, don't...leave...me here..." she panted in between kisses, "...alone".

"I can't take you with me Julia, it's too dangerous, and I will do anything to protect you. I would give my life for you, and besides, I'll be back as soon as you know it," I reassured.

"You don't know how much is worries me every time you leave. I never know if you are going to come back to me. What if something happens to you? I don't sleep a wink at night. I can't live without you Bell," she sobbed lightly.

She was starting to sound like Octavia and it broke my heart even more. Julia and I go through this every time I leave to go to the field. Every time it gets more and more painful.

"Every time I get another injured soldier to treat, I hold my breath and pray to god that it isn't you," she whispered.

"It won't be me Julia. I will come back to you, always."

She nodded and wiped her tears, mustering up a smile. "All the rest of the nurses here are all so kind to me, they've been good. But I won't be able to live if something happens to you out there."

I pulled her into an embrace. She spoke softly into my chest. "I love you."

"I love you too." Nodding and giving her one last kiss. I headed outside.

Julia was the love of my life. I replayed the first time I had met her in my mind and blushed. She was one of the nurses that treated the wounded soldiers at our camp, she treated me when I had a nasty infection developing on my cut. She looked up at me with those stunning icy blue eyes and her auburn hair danced in the wind when they yelled for assistance as I started to black out.

She potentially saved my life, and we fell hopelessly in love. She was all I have ever wanted in a woman, and I loved her with all my heart. I couldn't wait for her to meet Octavia.

Still goofily smiling at my luck, I heard a high pitch noise fly over me. An airplane.

It zoomed over my head and I didn't think anything of it at first. The desert like land around me was vast and empty, only our camp stood freely in the middle, proud and strong. The wind lapped at my curly hair as I walked towards where the troops had lined up, one more look back at the medical tent, now a tiny speck in the distant horizon.

Only when people started yelling, did I pay any notice to the fuss. The other army troops started yelling.

"Bellamy! Find shelter!" One yelled from ahead.

My heart dropped to the ground the same time the bomb landed on our camp. All I could hear was the beating of my heavy heart and the ringing in my ears. Our entire camp, obliterated before I could blink twice. Incinerated. The medical tent, and all the other tents that had our supplies. Gone.

It was an air raid. Someone pulled at my arm, I built up the energy to resist and started running towards the tents on fire. Some were singed into darkness, like someone had spilt black paint all over it. Like oblivion, emptiness, nothingness.

"Julia! Julia!" I screamed. I couldn't scream, but my voice was mentally piercing in my head, however not a single sound came out of my mouth. I couldn't think. I collapsed and drifted into inky blackness.

I shouldn't have left her. I really shouldn't have left her. I should never have left her.

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The sun set over the horizon, the salty sea air was blowing against my face in desperation to escape the ghastly ocean waves. Clarke left my office, absolutely shattered. I didn't give her a chance to talk either.

The anger burned, but as she left I felt a hint of fear for her. Something I couldn't explain. I went to Vanilla Bean Cafe and got myself a caramel latte. I used to have them every day as a child and it gave me major nostalgia.

Funny enough, Clarke was sitting there on one of the seats. Exactly where she was last time I told her to get out of my office.

I closed my eyes and saw Julia's perfect face. I couldn't ever forget Julia's face, I couldn't let myself forget her face otherwise I wouldn't forgive myself. It was my responsibility to make sure her memory wasn't lost in the whirlpool of thoughts that drown me every day.

She was like a ship, battling against the whirlpool. She had an open mind, not afraid to see things in others perspectives. And so she was mine and I was hers.

I closed my eyes once more. But this time, there was something wrong with Julia's face.

What the hell?

I focused harder. It was her eyes, I was sure of it. Her blue eyes; they were still blue. It was Julia's face, but those eyes weren't hers. Julia's has an icy tone to them. These eyes were piercing sky blue.

I could differentiate those piercing blue eyes from anyones eyes.

My eyes snapped open in time to see Clarke wiping her tear stained face and preparing to leave.

Julia's tear stained face flashed before my eyes. Her death had shattered me, and I was never the same.

"I shouldn't have left her."

The last thought of that tragic day before I blacked out from the pain. Not the physical pain, the emotional pain.

What was I...thinking?

I ran after Clarke along the water front. She turned around when I grabbed her arm and looked at me in shock, her red eyes gazing at me in confusion. That unmistakable piercing blue still standing out through the pain.

"Bellamy?" Clarke sputtered. "Bellamy, I'm sorry I...I just..."

"Shut up," I responded.

"No, it was wrong of me and–"

"I never should've let you go," I cut in, and pulled her into a kiss.

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A/N: hey friends, sorry for the long wait! I have exams going on at the moment and it's real stressful 😒

Hope you guys like this chapter, I thought after 40 chapters it was about time they kissed 😂❤️

The waterfront. How romantic! Will they confess their love for each other?

Stay tuned and thank you for reading 😘

Kitty x