Spending time with the badass

The date

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Why is life so terrible?! After that day on the cliff Hayden gets a little awkward around me and I don't know why. I thought we were friends and I almost bring it up but then I think maybe it's just because he told me his secret and I don't want to be that jerk who brings it up.

I kept thinking about that night and how he shared his secret he probably just doesn't want to bring it up. Thinking about that night made me think about cancer. I think I just overreacted my nose just bled because my allergies were bad from sleeping outside and all the other times it was because my allergies mad my nose dry. my head only hurts from all the added stress to my life.

Speaking of stress try picking out an out fit for your first date ever it's really hard.

I won't know for sure until my next appointment but I'm almost certain it's back. I tried deniying it for a while but there's no ignoring it anymore. Thats why I cried myself to sleep two nights in a row but I don't plan on telling anyone about it until I now for absolute sure. I don't want to scare them for no reason.

No more being a Denny downer lets get to my happy side of life. Tonight I have a date with none other than my super cute crush Devon woot woot!

I need to stop dwelling on the unknown and live for the ....well the fun things I guess I'm not really good at this whole metaphor thing. Anyway back to matter at hand finding an outfit. What to wear? What to wear?

I was going through my closet looking through everything possible. I was so excited yet nervous because I liked him a lot. I know I said I liked Hayden but I think it was just because he was the only guy I ever really hung out with besides Brian and even if I did like him it was a spur of the moment minor crush. With Devon I really do like him like more than a crush.

As I was lost in thought my eyes skimmed over the denim high low dress with a flower skirt and matched it with my ankle boots.

Picking out the outfit made everything more real as I was straightening my hair I couldn't help but daydream about Devon. Rememering what his lips felt like on my lips and the mini fireworks in my tum tum. It was magical.

I was knocked out of my daydream by a knock on my door " Come in" I said slightly loud.

Elli walked through the door with an excited look on her face " Soooooo how excited are you I mean I am so seriously excited which means your excited but I'd be nervous to because so much can go wrong like-"

I cut her off there is no way was I going to let her make me any more nervous than I already was.

"Ellie don't even.... I'm already flipping out as it is. What if he decides he doesn't like me and then I am left all heartbroken and disappointed what if I make a fool of myself -"

Ellie jumped in " look he's gonna like you because your amazing and if he doesn't well being the best friend I would say I would beat his assss but knowing you you prolly would have already bloodied his nose and bruised his eye before I even got a chance " she said and both of us burst out laughing because it had some truth to it. What can I say I'm a violent person.. Her saying that made me a little less nervous but not much.

"Thanks ell" I said smiling at her.

"A pleasure as always my fair lady " she said giggling as she bowed

"Your such a weirdo" I said

" Well then I shall never bow to queen bich again " She said and I heard the honk of a horn downstairs.

Ellie's face did this weird thing I can't explain

"What Ell?" asked

"Oh it's nothing have fun " She said as she jumped on my bed. She would most likely wait here all day until I got home ,so I could tell her about the date and I was kind of grateful for it.