Sleeping with the enemy

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Tobirama sighed and pushed his plate away from him. He folded his arms and closed his eyes in deep thought. I don't know what I expected out of telling him but silence wasn't it. Once again Tobirama's pride gets in the way of having a civil conversation.

"Your silence is enough." I grabbed my plate and slammed them into the sink. I walked past him and went into the bedroom to prepare myself for bed. As I'm brushing my hair Tobirama steps in the room. " I couldn't just cut my feelings off ." He stated.

"Didn't know you had any" I gripped my brush so hard I would've broken it if I weren't trying to remain calm. But that lasted only seconds before I tossed the brush at him. Almost hitting him in the face had he not moved his head.

"If you would've just been honest with me -.." I didn't know what else to say. He should've just been honest to me. It's not like we were here by our own free will.

"If I would've been honest with you .. you  would've went back to pursuing hashirama." I looked over to him wondering what he knows. He walks over to the bed and sits. " hashirama and I are closer than what we seem. He was devastated by this whole arrangement as well But madara insisted on me being the one to marry you."

"Devastated? I didn't want this either but I didn't disrespect you"

"Cut the crap y/n. He told me everything. the day after my father and I found madara and hashirama at the river and you and izuna came. You went back there the next day to see if madara went back. But you found hashirama instead..... since that day you two saw each other every day in secret. Forming a private relationship.  Hidden from madara. From me."

My heart broke at the memories of me sneaking out to spend all night in hashiramas arms just talking. Talking about a wedding .. how special my first time will be. I shook  my head from those thoughts. Forcing them to go away.

For some reason he looked upset but that was done long before this alliance.

" what was done before you is irrelevant. What happens after is what's important. And I can assure you nothing has happened. Hashirama and I ended things when I lost izuna. "

"And I'm supposed to believe that ? My brother loved you. Hadn't touched his wife for the first few months they've been married because he was still too in love with you. And here you are now. In his reach."

"He defended you after you murdered my brother ! What was left to save? If I speak to Hashirama it's about you and never in private. The only time I had received privacy with him was after your rage episode over me going to town alone and about my brother."

Tears formed from anger dripped down my face. " my people's happiness are more important to me then my own! That's the only reason I'm here still . I specifically told you that if it's what you wanted have your affairs in secret as I will do the same and we remain together in the public eye. YOU selfishly laid with me after stating we are actually trying this marriage out and see another woman in secret! I foolishly gave you my virginity for you to take advantage of my kind heart and have a side whore. I will never be able to get that back. As much as I loved hashirama it wasn't even given to him. I feel betrayed. Disgusted. I went against the only family member I have to back you up. And you betrayed me. Not just as your wife but as the only other person who understands how you feel when laying next to a damn stranger."

"Fumihiko is someone I was seeing during the wars. It started off casual but things progressed throughout the years." He said. "I haven't touched her since we've been married"

"Do you expect me to believe that?!" I scoffed.

"Actually yes." He glared at me as though I was losing my mind.