Sleeping with the enemy

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Hashirama hovered over me . rubbing the side of my cheek he studied each small detail of my face in awe. Like if he couldnt believe how lucky he was.

I missed being looked that way..or at least i think anyways. if it was just a dream than i missed nothing in order for me to miss this.

"Is something wrong?" i asked him . his eyes shifted up to mine.

but he didnt form a smile. instead his face was filled with concern and worry. "Are you?" he starts "you woke up hysterical. Saying you married my brother and now you want to lose your virginity... not that im complaining but.. it doesnt sound like your actually ready.. You sound more scared than ready.

"that dream... it felt so real..i spent months living that life.. or at least what it felt like. I felt pain and pleasure. I was sick.. I could smell fragrances, it was so realistic. I had to lay with a man who hated me.. all while i watched you love someone before my eyes..." my eyes watered " i spent so much time convincing myself that i was over you .. but you kept .. being you.. expressing your undying love and .. waking up.. with you... hearing it wasn't real.. i'm relieved. In my dream i gave tobirama my virginity and i found myself constantly regretting it. but it wasn't the fact that i gave it to him. it was the fact that i never given it to you. Even then in that situation.. i couldnt doubt your love for me. I could never."

"you should never." he interrupted. " I'm risking my life being here with you. faithfully day in and day out. As over bearing your brothers are we risk getting caught each day . But i still proudly and unapologetically hold you in my arms afraid to let go. I'd go against my own brother if he tried hurting you.  Even if we dont work out and what you seen was the future .. I would never stand by my brother betraying you like that. thats how you know its a dream."

"and the red head woman?" i asked as i played with the strand of his flowing hair. 

"I don't know any one from the uzumaki clan. i swear it." he placed his hand over his heart. " I dont think you understand how deeply in love with you i am y/n."

"your right..but that dream only made me realize how much i love you and i dont see why we should have to wait any longer to have sex.  " i mumbled.

"i also wanted to ask you about my brother." he nervously asked. his voice grew shaky and had to clear his throat  . sitting up he scratched the back of his head. " did you fall in love with him?"

i wanted to smile and think how cute he was when he got jealous but i couldn't. because the truth was in my dream i had fallen for him. "honestly. not at first.. he grew on me as the months went by.."

"And you said you two had sex?" his face was serious and a bit disturbed by my answers..

"yes.."

"did he please you? ... i mean was he satisfying you enough?" 

i placed my head down and watched the floor. i wasnt sure.. "i- I dont know.. i dont know how to answer that"

wrapping me in his arms with my back against his chest both his hands rubbed up my arm and gripped my shoulder. "for example.." he whispered.. "did he lightly kiss you on the neck?" his warm breathe hit my skin before his lips connected. softly kissing my neck .. "did he find your weak spot?" his lips traveled right to where my shouldr and neck meets and bit down gently. a wave of static and pleasure shot up my neck, to the side of my face and through my collar bone while a rush of intensity and inner tingling worked down my southern region. 

"n-no."i moaned softly.. his strong hands went over my shoulder and down my top, caressing my right boob.

sliding the off my clothes he laid me back and hovered over me once again. his eyes filled with hunger and targeted my chest. he leans down and places his mouth over my left nipple while his other hand played with the right.