Shadows

27.

'honey' Blake yelled when he entered my room 'where's my super suit'

I broke down laughing when I looked back at his facial expression, it was priceless.

'I know I could make you laugh' he says proud and lays down next to me on my bed.

The whole day I've been kind of down because hormones, and it's that time of the month again. I didn't tell Blake of course, I'm not that much of an open book. It was really cute hoe he's tried to make me laugh all day. It didn't work until now.

'ouch, my tummy' I wrap my arms around my waist and crawl up in a ball.

'did you laugh to hard?' Blake asks as he was talking to a kid

'kinda, and I'm not a kid' I looked up at him

'kinda?' he asks, frowning. 'are you getting sick?'

'no' I shook my head and watched how he moved closer to me and played with my hair I put up in a pony tail.

'then why does your belly hurt?' he keeps asking.

It's cute how he's worried, but also kind of annoying.

'it just does okay' I say and turn away from him.

'is something going on? You're acting weird' he kept talking.

'nothing is going on and I'm not acting weird'

Fucking mood swings

He was silent for a while, 'ah' he said then. His arms wrapped around me and held me close to him

'I know what's going on' he whispered

'sure' I mumbled

'you're having you're monthly mood swings, cravings, tummy aches, down days'

'calling out everything I do isn't helping' I said

'okay baby' he chuckled.

'baby?' I asked since he has never called me that

'you're mine so I can call you baby' he whispered 'right?'

'of course, but only if I can call you all the cheesy names too' I tried to look back at him, not that it worked.

'whatever you want' he moved some hair out of my face.

I smiled and played with his hands that where still on my belly.

'how come you don't want to hug me but do want to snuggle with me?' I randomly asked

'ehm' he mumbled 'I think their different. snuggle is just to get closer to someone, or to comfort them. Hug is something special and personal'

'are you saying this means nothing to you?' I asked, again not mad just.. curious.

'I don't know. I doesn't do that much to me. but you mean something to me so I guess that changes it'

'but a hug?' I asked since I didn't really understand that part.

'I see hug as something you do when you trust someone, when they mean something special to you. for example I would never hug a stranger, or greet someone with a hug.'

'so that's why you never hug me back' I nod slowly

'that and It's not really in my genes. I'm not really a huggy person in that way.'

I nodded slowly and closed my eyes.

'but I promise you that there will be a day that I will hug you back' he whispers

'I won't hold my breath' I smile.

He pulls me closer to him and I slowly fall asleep in his arms.

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When I wake up I find myself in the same position I fell asleep in. only not Blake was playing with my hair and holding my hand with his other hand.

'you awake?' he asked

'hmm..' I mumble and then yawn

'does your belly still hurts?' he asks

'kinds' I shrug 'how long did I sleep?'

'half an hour' he told me

'did you sleep?' I asked

'no' he told me 'I just listened to you snore'

'of fuck' I curse under my breath and chuckle. I forgot I snore in my sleep, not very charming.

'don't worry, it was cute' he chuckled, I shook my head and turned around to face him.

'it's 6 o'clock, don't you need to be home soon?' I asked him

'no but if you want me to go I'll go' he told me

'no it's not that I just' I said as I played with the strings of his hoodie 'I don't want your parents to get mad at you'

'no I'll go' he moved to the side and stood up

'Blake' I exclaim as I sit up 'I didn't mean you had to leave'

'you did so I'll go' he looks back, his eyes as black as night

'no Blake, I just don't want your parents to worry about you. I don't want you to leave, I definitely don't want you to leave' I stood up.

'you shouldn't worry about me, or my parents. That's not your job. That's my job, and I told you that I didn't have to be home at any time'

'Blake, that is kind of my job. I'm your girlfriend, I care about you' I walked over to him since he was about to leave and I don't want to him to leave when we're practically in a fight.

'you shouldn't care Christina. I'm not the right person for you to care about' he yelled

'Blake' I yelled over his noise 'look at me'

He didn't do that so I grabbed his hands 'look at me' I said again.

'i can't choose who I care about and who i don't. I care about you, so I asked if you have to be home at some time. I didn't mean I wanted you to go, I just don't want your parents to get mad at you'

I put my hand on his cheek so he's forced to look at me.

'I care about you, and that's never going to stop. right now I don't want you to go because I like you presence, and how you hold me, and how you figured out that I'm on my period. Blake I am your girlfriend so you will have to get used to these questions'

He breathed in and out and licked his lips 'please say you're mine and you will always calm me down like this'

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close enough that our noses touched.

'I'm yours and I will always clam you down'