The Ruthless Beat (Cordova Empire Series 1)

PROLOGUE

Trigger Warning: Suicide

Prologue

Live

To my family,

By the time you read this, I'll be gone.

I don't know where I'll end up but at least you don't have to be with me. You don't have to put up with the negativity that I brought into our family.

By the time you'll read this,

I'll be nothing more than an ephemeral memory that you'll think of from this day forward, but I hope whenever you think of me, you'll think of the happy moments we've shared and created together. Sana nga kahit minsan ay napasaya ko rin kayo.

Mom, Dad,

I am weak, I miserably failed and I'm sorry. You didn't deserve to be affected by my imperfections. You don't have to look at me anymore with afraid, helpless, hopeless eyes and I don't have to looked back at them accepting my defeat.

I'm sorry for giving up on life.

I'm sorry for causing you pain until my very last moment. Pero huwag sana ninyong sisisihin ang mga sarili ninyo. Know that I'll gone because I chose to do so. Gusto kong mabuhay. Gusto ko pa kayong makasama dahil kayo ang pinakamasayang parte ng lahat sa akin pero hindi ko alam kung paano...

I guess life was only for the strongest to survive, I am not. There's this deep sadness in me that never goes away no matter how loved and worthy you all make me feel.

Pagod na po ako...

I hope one day all of you will forgive me for being such a burden. Huwag kayong umiyak. Isipin niyong kahit minsan, nagawa kong maging matapang para gawin at tapusin ang nasimulan kong ito. Kahit ito lang...

Please stop crying. Wipe your tears away. Don't mourn. Don't grieve because I am now in a good place. For once I feel proud of myself. I felt brave, contented, happy.

By the time you finish reading this I'll be gone... but know that I love you. Each and everyone of you... So much...

Live for me.

Be there for someone who's weak. Listen to them. Be sensitive. Love and give infinitely. Live... Just live.

Love,

S.