Rationale // Jenlisa [BOOK 2/3 - COMPLETED]

epilogue

Jennie Kim calling...

My phone kept on buzzing as it kept on receiving calls from Jennie Kim, nonstop, but I just ignored them all despite already having sympathy towards her. I'm sorry jagiya, but I have to do this.

This was your father's order. I had no other choice left so I just did it.

Ever since I got to my hotel room, I was crying uncontrollably. All of our memories kept on rushing in my head, remembering the times where we were still having fun with life, thinking that we were forever young, especially when spending each others' time in each others' arms. My brain made such slideshow of our best moments together with no mercy towards my heart. Climbing a tree when we were still kids, going to an arcade when we were still in grade school, attending school plays in high school, and going to house parties during college that we almost kissed each other that night because of her drunk self. Those were the days~

Jennie Kim calling...

I didn't know what to do or say or how to feel but I was just so numb. I can't even feel anything that my throat began to dry itself up. I also lost my appetite. I can't believe that all of these were happening. It was just too much to process, knowing that Jennie had already confirmed that I'm still alive, or not.

No, Lisa and Pranpriya are two different people.

Some people think that Lisa's now dead. Some people don't actually think of that way, which I guess the people who don't give a fudge about life, especially mine.

Jennie Kim calling...

She's calling again. Sighing, I declined her phone call once again as I called my best friend, Park Chaeyoung.

The original plan was to just look after Jennie from afar and make her do the things that I wanted to do with her when I was still alive. The things that wouldn't matter to everyone else, as long as we're together. But, life isn't fair at all times; tested and proven. You can never keep something for a long time if there's something neglecting you from having it on your own, unless you fight for it.

But, what if someone with greater powers, holds you back from fighting? Would you still continue raise up your shield and do your thing for love or would you bring down your sword and surrender for your own sake?

Sometimes, holding on takes more damage than letting go.

"Chaeyoung-ah.." I said while loudly sobbing. "Lisa-ya, ottoke. Why are you crying, my dongsaeng?"

"J-jennie. S-she already has an idea on who kept on sending her the emails." I said while tears escaped my eyes. "She knows that it's me. S-she already know that I'm that ghost!"

"You've sent the sixth email already?" She asked as I simply hummed in reply. "How fast. But, Lisa-ya. I need you to listen, arasso?"

Out of sadness, I nodded my head while crying. I suddenly remembered that it was just a phone call. "Yah! Don't nod your head like a baby, speak like a woman that has a golden voice. You pabo."

She had the guts to tease me even at times like this. "I'm just kidding. Anyways, I know it is hard for the both of you to accept the happenings of your life right now and I want you to be strong. I know it's easy to say and hard to do but I want you to try. If you're crying right now, she might feel worse than you, knowing that you're dead now. I just want you to breathe in and breathe out and tell yourself that it's going to be alright. Just distract yourself first and you'll be good. I wish I could go there and comfort the hell out of you, knowing that you could be careless upon handling yourself. Eomma and appa already warned me about going to South Korea and all so the chances of me sneaking out of Austalia is pretty damn low."