A Believer: Blessed (Vol. 3)

Record 15: We Have Each Other

To the girl who was named after a boy name,

I want to salute you for being brave and bold.

I always admire your not so common personality. You're different from others, you are unique.

I know you are strong and also a cheerful one. I know you can stand on your own feet. I know how you turned your darkness into light. I know how you changed your hurt into joy.

Though I consider you as a tough person who can stand against all negative things in life, but I acknowledge also that you have your own weaknesses. Though I see you fighting but I can hear little cries from your inside.

I want to hug you, so we can cry together.. But I don't want you to feel weak and hopeless. I want to see you strong and brave as you already are.

You became a sister and a friend to me in such unexpected ways and times. I know that we have this kind of bond the we don't have with others. I learned to care and love you through the years we spent together.

I always be here for you. I will always supports you and give you a bundle of advices that sometimes not really a great help in your situation but I hope it makes you feel at ease.

I really don't know how to become an 'ate', because I'm the youngest in our family, but you made me feel like I am already qualified as one.

I will going to miss you. I hate goodbyes, I really do. And I will not mention the word also to you. Because I want to see you again. I want to share the same laugh we had before again. I want to be your trash can, even until forever. And thank you also for being one for me. I want you to stay. I want you to be part of my whole life span.

I'm actually afraid that this day will come. That situation like this will ruined the things we just started.

I want to cry for the things I cannot control. I want to resent the moments that will never be the same anymore.

But wherever you can and you will be happy, I will be happier. I just want to keep in touch with you even until forever.

When I saw you became brave, I become brave too. When I saw you stood, I think I can stand too. When I saw you became radical, I am immitating also. You are not just a friend to me. You are my soul sister.

Believe me when I say I cry for you, when no tears fall in your eyes. I am hurting, when you smile and show that you are okay when you aren't. I want to speak for you when you can't say what you really want to say (But sorry, 'ate' is a very coward person). You showed me how to be strong, and I am learning. Still a work in progress. I have a lot of things that I have learnt from you.

I really do have a lot of things to tell you, but I cannot put them into words. I don't know if all of these words are already enough to tell you what I want to say, or I'm still lacking.

Please, always remember that you have me, when no one are there for you. But I know that you are surrounded of people that loves and cares for you. You are loved and treasured. Do not feel alone, or guilty of things you didn't mean to say or do. Continue to live, if isn't look like you're living, please continue to survive.

Dark days will not stay forever, light will soon come.

God is watching from above, He knows everything and we can trust him. Continue to be brave and bold! Your hurt today will become your testimony later. Your situation today will become a helpful lesson for you someday.

If you think you did a mistake, always remember that God will use every mistakes useful. It is okay to commit a mistake, because you have all the chances to start all over again. Start again when you failed. But I believe that there's no such things as failure when we do not give up and we keep moving forward.

Be strong and courageous, God is with you. He has a perfect plan for you, sometimes we don't understand the process but I know we can thank him later. Discover where you are called, and if you found it, do your best into it.

Love,
The always crying-baby ate you have and also the always empty trash can you can put all your trashes