Record 32: He Is My Saviour

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by __assi

by __assi

Day 1: April 10, 2020
Mateo 27:45-56
Today is a remembrance of Jesus death on cross for our salvation.

"Dear Lord,

I'm sorry for everything I do and done that hurts you. My flesh is weak, I do what I want to do most of the time.

Yea, today I am so thankful that I have done something great, not in the sight of others, it just me. I do this to satisfy myself. But I always felt eyes around me. I know, I am the only one who about it, and it is not good.

My self esteem is very low. I feel like my body is burried on the ground and just my head pops there. Looking, thinking that everybody is against me or my family.

Yea, I know, baka ako lang nanaman to na nag-iisip ng ganun that's why I came to you to rescue me from my own self. My way of thinking is not healthy anymore. I easily hate and holding grudges again.

I always put myself into 'always ready' situation, gathering something good about myself and something against people, because Yea, I'm always the one keep my mouth shut and let the pain go through my heart. I couldn't fight, because when time comes and others confronted me of what I do, my mind will immediately dictate me or tell me what I did is wrong. Then after, I realised I am right. So, I don't know what to do. Mahina ang loob ko.

Ayuko ng ganito Lord. Help me to put my confidence in you. Save me from drowning again into the deeps of my thoughts and pain. Help me get over anxiety.

Help me please. I don't want to compare myself to others. I don't want to get angry to others. I just want peace. I just want to do my best. Help me to feel at ease if I did what is right, but in case I didn't help me to accept it and turn to the other way. Help me not to be deeply embarrassed again and hate myself.

Help me not freak out of myself never again.

Help me Lord to stand straight and just do my job.

Help my husband also to do his best in everything he will do. Please give Him the wisdom he needs. Help him to do what ia right, especially on your sight. Help me to always support him help me to accept him and learn to lift him up when he needed it. Help me to become his best partner. Help him to do first the things he ought to do first, and the things he ought to see.

Bless our family and protect us. Help us also to protect each other in good ways.

Get all my resentment and hate, pain and guilt and everything unnecessary to my life and to our family. Help us to grow in faith and in love with you Lord. Please, help us.

Help the world also from the pandemic - covid 19. Save the world, heal the world, and let the world acknowledge you Lord as savior and Lord.

As we sleep tonight, renew our mind, strength, and give us peace of mind. Tomorrow is another day, help ua to become productive everyday. Help us to give the best care for our baby Zechariah.

And Lord, please give me peace.

In Jesus name, I pray.

Amen. "

Yea, I think writings would be easier for me to express God my heart.

Have a good day everyone and be safe. Stay at home. Jesus loves us all.