Casual Affair//Brallon&Ryden (Bryllon)

21

Brendon didn't sleep that night. He stayed up, staring at nothing, thinking about this situation. He knew it was immoral, but something about the risk fueled his drive to keep doing it. One thing he wished he would have done was to just control himself and not begin anything at all, to save his and the other boys feelings once everything went to shit.

He wished that he didn't have to make a decision like this. He knew he was a grade A asshole because of what he was doing, but he still didn't want to stop.

He ended up going to Sarah for help.

"Dude holy shit..." she was at a loss for words. She was aware that Brendon liked both Dallon and Ryan, but she didn't know that it ended up going this far. "I know... I fucked up... and now I don't know what to do." Brendon hoped that maybe Sarah could come up with a solution for him. Yes, this was his problem to take care of. He knew that, but he needed moral support and advice from someone that he trusted with his life. 

Sarah and Brendon sat there on the mans messy bed. The room was stuffy and full of sorrow and regret. "Brendon...I just... I don't know what to say really. I don't know what to do..." Brendon sighed and nodded. He figured she wouldn't, but her presence still helped.

"I know.. I was just hoping maybe you had an idea or something... I still appreciate you coming to help. What do you thing you would do in this situation?" 

She sighed and stayed silent for a moment, trying to think about how she'd go through with this problem.  "H-honestly Brendon, I'd do what really anyone else would do... I'd just end it all..." she saw the frustration and disappointment swell in the boy's face. "...honestly I would. I don't think it's healthy to continue on the relationships with either of them. It's wrong... and I can tell it's fucking you up mentally and emotionally, and it's probably going to do the same thing to the both of them too..."

Brendon groaned and plopped backwards onto his bed. "I know that it's what I should do, but I can't. I genuinely can't. I'm so emotionally attached to them both, I'm in love with them both. So much... just so much. I can't bare to think about leaving either of them." tears began running down the sides of his face. Just the idea of not being with them both took over his thoughts.

"Why did I do this? Why did this have to happen?" he whispered and trembled. Sarah stared at him, feeling so bad for him but not knowing what to do for him. "Why do I have to love them both so much..."

Sarah was sad for him, but was also disappointed. "I just can't understand why you'd do something like this Bren... I would have never expected you to do this." Brendon nodded, he understood why she'd be shaming him for this. 

"I need to fix this." he whimpered. Sarah hugged him tight and rocked him. "You'll find a way. But you have to fix it soon."

The sobbing man took the rest of the day to think about how he could do this. His options were limited. He could choose between the two... or leave them both. He could tell them... or not.

Maybe a poly relationship, but he knew that neither of the two would be okay with that. 

Feelings suck.

While he sulked in his bed and let his blankets devour him in the darkness of his depressing room, his phone began to ring.

Incoming call from Ryan

Brendon curiously answered the phone wondering why he was calling. He never calls.

"Hello..." he anticipated that something bad may have happened.

"Dude you haven't been answering my texts. I'm outside. Let me in." he didn't sound happy.

Brendon signed, thinking 'at least he's okay.'