Brendon laid in bed for hours sorting through the pros and cons of both men. He needed to make sure that his decision was the right one.
Pros of Dallon
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Smart
Funny
Very affectionate and caring
Comforting
Cute
Would do anything for me
Cons of Dallon
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Proprietary
Sensitive
My teacher
Short temper
Not out (if we got caught would out him and be bad)
Could get fired
Pros of Ryan
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Hilarious
Musically talented
Doesn't take shit from anyone
Loving
Best friend for years
Always there for me
Cons of Ryan
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He's my best friend and that's also bad
Even more short tempered than Dallon
Also territorial but not as much
Not at comforting
Very nosy
Those weren't all of them, but the main ones. Ryan wasn't as comforting as Dallon was, and Dallon was for sure very territorial much more than Ryan. Ryan gets mad easily... Dallon gets way too jealous. The cons and the pros are balanced between the two which made it much more difficult for him to really decide.
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Dallon was still appalled by what Ryan last told him. The string of words that came out of Ryan's mouth echoed in Dallons angered mind. It made him sick. He was barely paying attention to the road as he drove home. With how clouded his mind was, he could have gotten into a wreck. But he safely made it home. (A/N lol AU where Dallon gets into a car wreck and gets like long-term memory loss to before he met Brendon so he doesn't remember him anymore and now Brendon can easily choose Ryan oops)
Dallon stayed in bed the rest of the night. He was going to have to deal with whatever Brendon decided to do. Whether he choose Ryan or selected neither of them.
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Brendon wished that Dallon wasn't so proprietary and that Ryan wasn't so angry.
The most unfortunate thing about making this decision was that either way, Brendon was going to have to deal with lost friendships, jealousy, and distrust.
Maybe I should say fuck it and leave them both
He didn't know how to choose in such a short amount of time, but he did this to himself. He figured... since he committed such an unforgivable act, he deserved to feel guilt and shame no matter which of the paths he chose. That was fair enough punishment he thought.
I stay with Ryan
I stay with Dallon
Or I leave them both
Either way one will be hurt... or both with the last option. I will be hurt all 3 ways. There's no easy way out.
Maybe... I could fake my own death... change my name and move to a different state... but then I'd be hurting everyone for a different reason...
No matter what he did, someone will be upset. He fears that Ryan will lash out on Dallon. He saw what happened with them in the Driveway. He peered out his Bedroom window and saw the two arguing. He could hear them perfectly. After what Ryan had snapped at Dallon, Brendon shook his head and sunk down to the floor.
They hate each other, and it's all my fault.
For the next few days, the only thing Brendon did was contemplate his options. He didn't go to school, not wanting to see either of the men. Especially not in the same classroom with each other. God knows how they act around each other in a school setting.
His parents made no effort to ask what was on his mind. To their knowledge, he had the flu. The man made fake puke noises in the mornings and at night when his parents were home. A week was long enough to fake a flu supposedly.
Brendon wondered if Cerise was aware of the situation. He's only spoken to her a few times but he felt like she could help him. Although, he anticipated that she would not be happy with him.
Which he was right.
He sent her a simple text that said:
"Hey Cerise... it's Brendon. Can I ask you for some advice?"
To which she quickly replied:
"I want nothing to do with your little game of switching between boyfriends. You hurt my best friend immensely. Keep me out of it."
An expected response, but still left him disappointed. The only other person he could turn to was Sarah, but she already gave as much input as she possibly could.
The one thing he kept fretting about was that he was inevitably going to lose friendships. Picking Dallon would no doubt make Ryan never want to talk to Brendon and vice versa. But if he chose neither, then what would happen? Would he lose them both? Or keep their friendships?
Losing them both wouldn't be fun. But he would understand. Who wanted to be friends with a dirty lying cheater? That was his mentality. He was nothing but a lying dirtbag.
He didn't deserve to choose. He shouldn't have been allowed a second chance.
But...
Maybe in some strange way he did. Maybe it was his wakeup call. Some of the worst people get second chances. Maybe it wasn't so bad that he got one. But he felt so undeserving of it.
Just accept that you even have the option to choose. Most people don't get second chances.
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Brendon spent the whole week deciding. Dallon spent his time being a moody math teacher almost lashing out on his innocent students. He would have been the rudest to Ryan clearly, but Ryan stopped showing up to class. All Ryan did was go to his regular classes and leave early once 7th hour came along.
Dallon didn't mark him as missing. He resented the kid, but he wasn't going to let work and school interfere with their private lives. He knew why Ryan was skipping, and he wouldn't hold it against him.
An agonizing 7 days of decision making led to Brendon's final verdict.
Brendon knew what he was going to do. It wouldn't be easy for him, but he felt like it was the best decision.
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Wow haven't updated in like 2 months. Happy holidays merry christmas and what not ahh. I'm writing chapter 24 right now so maybe I'll stop being a deadbeat and upload it soon lmao. I'm sorry it's short but I'm going through some personal problems so I'm doing what I can...
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Casual Affair//Brallon&Ryden (Bryllon)
FanfictionRyan is still in love with Brendon, and Brendon may still be in love with him. Brendon accidentally hooks up with his math teacher, Dallon, at a club and develops feelings for him as well. But he can't choose either one of the men...so why not have...