Unforgiving// Kth

Chapter 24 L-leave

It's finally the end of school and I am so ready to get home as fast as I can. Yes. I skipped all my lesson. Yes. I was crying my eyes out. And no.No one came looking for me, I was left all alone letting darkness fully consume my body, my eyes were probably swollen considering the number of tears escaping my eyes so, I pulled a cap out of my bag to hide my face and, hung my head low walking out of the school gates filing with students.

I skimmed through the crowd of people, looking for a specific group of people. My eyes landed on Jimins back, I began approaching them sucking up all my sadness and plastering a small smile on my lips. I joined the group and all the talking died down, everyone was quiet, no talking, no smiling or laughing, complete and utter silence, all their faces wore blank expressions, no emotions at all.

"Hey, guys what's up?" my voice cracked at the end and I could feel my heart thump in my chest sending a boiling feeling through my body.

"Nothing," they said coldly making my 'smile' dropped straight away, my heart crashing against my ribs.

"W-What's going on guys?" I stutter furrowing my eyebrows."Mina is everything ok?" I turn to my best friend, who looked especially odd.

"It's just..."Rm started looking at every one of the group, in turn, nodding his head."We think it's best for you to.." he turned to look at me then looked away. "To just leave."

My face dropped and so did my heart.

L-leave. As in, we don't like you, kind of leave.

As in we are tired of you, leave.

"L-leave?" I question still not believing. My heart banged in my chest, my head suddenly throbbing in pain. I look around at everyone, but they all stare at me blankly unamused, I try looking for a sign that this all just a joke but nothing. I get nothing.

"Yeah...like, leave us alone."He gestured at the whole group including Mina who looked down.

I look at Taehyungs eyes. But they weren't the eyes I knew, they weren't the jolly eyes. They were cold, bored, not the eyes I loved, but the eyes that reminded me of our first meeting, hateful. It looked like he was looking at nothing a blank canvas, bored wanting to just leave. He rolls his eyes and looks away down at the ground like it is more interesting.

"Ugh let's just go." Suga groans rolling his eyes. I feel a pang in my chest, my face begins to heat up as I just stand there completely thrown off guard.

This is something I never expected to hear. This feeling is something I have never felt before.

"It's OK, " I smile painfully at them and take a step back still facing them."b-bye," my voice cracks ending in a whisper. I look at everyone in turn.

I turn around and my face drops a single tears escapes my eyes, I tighten my grip on my bag strap and walk away from them, as hard as it was I did in the end.

I bump into many people on the way out, all in which looked at me weirdly especially Yuna's group, who all began sending hateful things at me.

But I felt nothing. I heard nothing. I felt numb, is this how it feels like to be dead, emotionless.

Another tear escaped my eyes, as I thought of all our memories, our funny jokes.

Jin's windshield laugh,

Suga being savage,

Jimin cuteness,

J-hope my vitamin D,

RMS clumsiness,

Jungkook the cute bunny,

And,

Taehyung, the one I loved with all my heart, the one who made my heart beat like crazy.

I bump into a really big person and fall down scratching my knees and elbows. I get up emotionlessly, my body slumped foreword not muttering a word, and begin walking away.

The man grabs my wrist hard and basically squished them cutting my blood circuit. I turn to look at him with a blank face.

"Listen ahjussi, I have had a very bad day, and I really can't be bothered so, would you please let go, your cutting my circulations off." I look down at my now purple hand and try to wriggle my hand out.

"Listen here pretty, you bumped into me and you're going to have to pay for that, how about we go to my house and sort things there?"I feel chills running down my spine at how he called my pretty, ewww.

"Just let go of my hand right fucking now." I curse and begin venting my anger out.

"Awww booboo are you angry." he pouts his lips and acts like he is talking to a baby. Booboo, booboo what the actual fuck?

"First of all, don't call me booboo eww, second of all let go or this isn't going to end well."I sighed rolling my eyes.

"Awww what you gonna, do huh hmm booboo." he coos again sending chills up my spine.

"OK fine I give up, but look you have something in your hair bend so I can take it off,"

"Alright honey boo, " he smiles in victory and bends down slightly loosening his grip. I take this chance and lift my leg and kick him right where it hurts, harder than anything I have ever kicked leashing all my anger out. He groans and falls to the floor holding his member.

I scoff and walk away sluggishly.

I turn to the corner shop near my house and buy some food and snacks. I walk through the isle to isle dragging my feet after me till I stop where the ramens. I begin approaching it my eyes half closed, I notice a group of people standing a circle talking lowly there are backs facing me.

I grab two packs and turn to look at the other group blocking my exit and turn back to the front walking toward the group of people.

"Excuse me."I whisper, all my energy is gone and I feel tired of everything, I get no reply."Excuse me."I say a little louder but again I get nothing."Excuse me."I shout making them freeze and turn to look at me slowly.

One by one they turn to look at me and it felt like my world just stopped. It's was them. They told me to leave. Them who are called BTS.my face begins to heat up and my eyes get teary so I pull my cap down to cover my face, my heart race a mile per hour and it felt like time freeze.

"C-c-can I get t-through" I stutter as a tear leaves my eyes, my eyes glued to the floor as I wait for them to make way.

I get no answer but I hear some movement and I begin to move the wind hitting my face making my hair fly back, it was slow motion as I passed each and every one of them in turn, yet again time freeze as I passed taehyung making eye contact but he broke it looking away. I felt my heart ache my throat tightening making me feel suffocated.

And I leave not daring to look back because I know if I do I will fall apart not bearing to bare the pain craving I to me.

Hey, peeps how are.how are you feeling hope everything is ok. Don't worry everything will eventually fall into place just don't give up ok. I hope you're enjoying this book as said I wanted to spice things up a little so I ok you like it. I love you guys.

And remember 'you nice keep going.' 😊 bye, stay safe. Rokea xx

Updated:11.09.18

Edited: 10.05.19