This whole soulmate thing that the universe has decided to put in place is stupid. I don't believe in it. It's all so crazy and unrealistic. You are created and then matched with somebody who is 'perfect' for you. In some cases you know the person for your whole life and it's as easy as that. Or, if you're like me, you have no idea who the heck your soulmate is and why they listen to the same songs over and over.
What kind of drugs was the person who created this whole thing on??? What kind of logic is this? It at least could have been something straight-forward, clear and less annoying, like their name being tattooed on your wrist. If we even need soulmates. But no. What ever song is stuck in your soulmates head plays in yours, the lyrics sung by their own voice.
This gets super annoying. I would like to have a chat with this 'soulmate'. Their idea of fun is to listen to the Mamma Mia soundtracks endlessly and then guess what? The. songs. get. stuck. in. their. head. What did they expect would happen? Then, it's stuck in my head too because of THIS STUPID SOULMATE THING!!!
At least, I felt more angrier before the apocalypse. Now that the apocalypse has started, my heart flutters every time that certain song starts to repeat in my head. It was always that one phrase - that's how I knew that it was them. I began to rely on it to know of their existence, know that they were still surviving and thriving in this messed up world of ours.
Now I'm in this group and I've noticed that the number of random songs appearing into the others' heads have dwindled and slowly, they've disappeared. This is not only because their soulmates are one of the dead but also because a few have found each other, despite the conditions.
Mack and Addy found each other on the first day of the apocalypse, a story that they fondly share to the group in snippets around the fire or in the bed of the truck. They like to play around with the other's mind, testing how fast it takes for a song to travel to the other and how long it takes for Mack to notice that the song he's humming is coming from Addy's mind.
Warren and Garnett also met up close to the beginning, but they never really realized until now that they are meant to be. Warren isn't 'one for the trashy modern music' as she likes to point out and Garnett has a similar music taste to her, so they never knew the truth until a song played on the radio that Warren knew every word to. And Garnett had heard it plenty of times before, despite never hearing it in person his whole life.
Cassandra lost the singing on the sixth day that she had joined our group, when I had just reached two thousand. A few minutes after we rescued her she dropped to her knees, gasping in shock. Each time she caught the start of a tune she would hum excitedly until she could exclaim the title of the song playing. That was until the voice faded away and never came back.
Doc says that he hasn't heard the voice in twenty years but I know that that isn't the truth. Last week while he was cleaning off one of his knives he gasped excitedly and closed his eyes, humming a tune. But then he opened his eyes and carried on with his task, blinking away the tears pooling up in his eyes.
Now that we're constantly getting closer to California and the end of our mission, I think about the voice more often. Will I ever find her? With every zombie I shoot, every mile we tackle and every day that passes I crave to hear the sweet and beautiful sound of her voice. Although it's usually only the same five songs that plays her voice distracts me from that; brightens up my life and gives me hope and reason to keep moving on.
The only problem is, I haven't heard her voice in months.
The others reassure me - tell me that she's still alive and maybe she's like a bird and has lost her voice. They convinced me in the beginning but now their words have no meaning to me. I have to move on, focus on the mission.
