Honeymoon Avenue || a.i.

Chapter One

"CARTER!" I hear my name being screamed through the other side of the bathroom door. I'm so glad I remembered to lock it. I spin the bottle of pills in my hand.

I just wanna die.

I try to open it but have some troubles. I cry even more and try to open it. I give up and throw them on the ground.

It opens.

I crawl on the ground and pick up every single one of the pills and hold them in my cupped hand.

"Just do it already." I say quietly. I look at myself in the mirror and see make up running down my face.

"Ew." I say to myself and raise my had to my mouth. Just as I go to drop all the pills into my mouth, the door gets kicked in and my brother runs in.

"CARTER OH MY GOD!" He screams as I cry as he takes all the pills out of my hand and holds me. I cry into his chest.

"I just wanna die Chase. I just wanna die." I sob.

"No. Don't do this to yourself Carter." he says and holds my shoulders in his hand n pushes me back so I can look at him.

"Don't." he says and I shake me head.

"I have to!" I yell and try to get the pills out of his hand.

"Don't." he says calmly, but I see a tear fall down his cheek.

"Don't." he whispers and more tears silently fall down his cheeks.

"Fuck you Chase! I could've done it and I would've been free from this living hell!" I yell and fall to the floor in a crying mess.

"Don't." he says again and takes all the pills from the medicine cabinet and walks out. He comes back and pulls me up.

"Everything will be okay. I promise." he says and I just nod.

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"Mom, I'm sorry." I say quietly as she sits at the foot of my bed.

"You should be." she says and tears fall down my cheeks again.

"I am. I really am." I say and she just shakes her head.

"We're moving by the way."she says an I widen my eyes.

"Seriously?" I ask and she nods.

"Where to?" I ask and she looks at me.

"Australia." she says and my eyes widen even more.

"We're completely leaving England?" I ask and she nods and walks to the door. She looks back at me.

"You outta be ashamed. Taking your life because of some stupid mean girls and the internet. You need to get a grip on yourself Carter." she say an walks out.

Yeah my life is really shitty. I'm bullied all the time for my weight, I'm not super skinny like everyone else, and my dad left for America a month ago. People spread rumors about me that aren't true at all. I had friends, until they turned against me because it was 'too much' for them. Like bitch look at my life! Sorry that was mean. But I'm Carter Reed. And I tried to commit suicide today.

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So super short first chapter but that's only because my mom I making me sleep because I'm having a day on a house boats with my best friends.

So I wanted to have Acacia play Carter but I didn't know about how she photoshopped her scars and I can't find out how to get rid of the picture and I've tried to change the cast and it's just not working so let's pretend that Chloe Mortez is castes as Carter kay? Kay.

But my best friend actually moved yesterday. I cried and I miss her even though she's only been gone a day.

And there's quite a bit of drama going on between my friends.

So I'm kinda going through a tough time but I'm staying strong I guess....

Um I love you guys

~Mads :3