Hiraeth

Pain

TRIGGER WARNING

Previously:

We arrived home and I slowly got out of the car. I gulped before walking into the house after Kai. I walked into the living room and saw my father sitting on the couch.

"You know where to go." He grumbled before getting up and walking to his room. I close my eyes before opening them again and walking into the room with him.

I close the door behind me and lean against it, hearing a clanking noise, causing me to open my eyes. "You tried to run a lot last time. Plus, this will make things much more entertaining." He says with a small grin.

I watch as he set the handcuffs on the bed before looking at me, more like glaring. He started to walk towards me as he unbuckled his belt. Let the pain begin.

Present:

Mina's POV

I wake up on his bed and look around. I sit up slowly as pain course everywhere in my body. I don't remember much but I just hoped it stayed that way.

I grabbed the clothes that I usually hide under his bed and change into them as quick as I can without getting hurt that bad.

I let out a shaky breath as I grab my stuff, quickly limping to my bedroom. I get to my room quickly, despite the pain, and lock the door.

I let out a shaky breath before limping to my bed and putting all my stuff on it. I grab my phone and see multiple messages and calls from Jihyo, Momo, and the others.

I slowly tear up as I read some of the messages asking where I was and if I was ok. I didn't reply to any of them and put my phone on the charger.

I slowly turn around and limp to the bathroom, just doing what all the voices want me to do. "That's it. Now you listen to us." The same female voice says as all the other ones disappear.

I close the bathroom door behind me and slide down it, letting the tears fall. I completely forget about the pain all over my body and grab the razor from the counter.

I lean my head back against the door as I cut my wrist, closing my eyes. I continue to cut until I was finally somewhat satisfied.

I just sit there, staring at my wrist, thinking of absolutely nothing, until I feel a hand lift my chin to make me face them.

I see the same female I've been trying to ignore the whole time. "Thought I would leave you alone after that?" She asks with a slight chuckle as I simply whimper.

"You still blame yourself for it and you should. Kai only did it because of you. I would be alive, wouldn't I? It's your fault and you know it!" She screams and I try to ignore it.

I close my eyes and bring my knees to my chest, hugging them while rocking back and forth. I close my eyes tightly while whimpering.

"Admit it! It's your fault and you know it!" She screams again and I just covered my ears, facing the floor with her eyes still tightly closed.

I feel a slap to my cheek and notice that I just slapped myself but I only believed she did it since her hand was raised.

"You never listen! I said to admit it!" She screams more but I just stand up and rinse my wrist, wincing at the burning feeling.

I limp out of the bathroom and change again before grabbing all my stuff, looking around my room. There wasn't much so I just left.

I notice no one was home and let out another shaky breath before limping to the kitchen. I write a note and leave it on the fridge.

The note reads, "I'm done with all of you and I'm never coming back. Don't look for me and for once, leave me the hell alone."

I limp out of the building and head towards Jihyo's house, sighing. I stop briefly at a nearby shop and look in their window. I notice I have a bruise on my cheek from when I slapped myself earlier but I didn't care.

I was exhausted and I just wanted to be in Jihyo's arms, snuggling into her warmth. I was so out of it that I didn't notice I was already at Jihyo's house.

I walk up to the door and hesitantly knock. I could feel my heart beat rapidly in my chest as I breathe slowly.

I was lightheaded and I had to lean on the wall. The door opens and I hear someone gasp, catching me as I started to fall.

"Guys! I need some help!" The voice said as she held me. It sounded like Nayeon but I couldn't tell that well.

I was shaking as I buried my face in her neck. She started to stroke my hair and I leaned into her touch while gripping her shirt.

I heard some muffled voices but I couldn't distinguish them. Before I knew it, I passed out after hearing someone calling my name.

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