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izaya Birthday

shizuo POV

    It had been a year since Izaya died. Today is his birthday, so I went out to get his favorite flowers. Lilacs. 

     I haven't left my house since his funeral. Today was an exception. I felt the heated glares of the people that cared for him in my back. I thought that I was suffocating. I couldn't breathe. It hurt, everyone hates me. Celty stopped talking to me, and when she got married she didn't invite me. The only way I heard was I overheard some people talking about it. 

     Everything was dull now without Izaya to be there to greet me when I go outside. At first when I went outside I was hoping it was all a dream and that he would be there calling me Shizu-chan. Even though I pretended to hate it, I loved it when he called me that. It looked and sounded adorable. It's silent now and empty without him there to brighten up my day with his shit-eating grin, and bright lovely eyes.

     I was now at the store and had bought the flowers for Izaya. When I went to his grave I looked down and waited for everyone to leave. After everyone had left I went over and placed the flowers down and knelt in front of his grave saying the same thing I had practiced in the mirror, even though he couldn't hear it. Little did I know that none of the people had actually left and had overheard me saying " Izaya Orihara, I am sorry for all the pain I put you through. No one deserves that pain, but me. I came to tell you happy birthday, even though I know that you can't hear it but, Izaya Orihara, I love you. I wanted to ask yo this before you died, but will you marry me? even after I did all of those things to you, I hoped you would accept. I'm sorry, but i'll see you soon. You can answer then." I finished with a sad smile adorning my sharp features, stood up and walked off not noticing the crowd shedding tears from my speech and proposal.

no one POV

The crowd was crying as someone sniffled and turned white. "WAIT!!! DIDN'T SHIZUO SAY 'I'LL SEE YOU SOON???!!!!" Everyone froze and turned to the voice filled with concern, and rushed to Shizuo's house.

Shizuo POV

I had walked in the door and was now sitting in the bathroom crying. Then I remembered all of the pills and knives I had. 

      I quickly rushed out of the bathroom and went to the kitchen and grabbed 3 bottles of pills, knowing due to my strong immune system I won't die from 1 bottle of pills, and grabbed a knife.

     I went beck into the bathroom and wrote a note to my  little brother and my friends apologizing. 'I know I deserve this but, please at least let me be happy just this once. I'm sorry I was such a douchebag to plenty of people. I'm sorry to my little brother fr not being there for you as often as I should have been this year. I just can't do it anymore. I can't live without the love of my life, Izaya Orihara.' With that I downed the pill bottles and slit my wrists along the vein up to my elbow. About a minute later I felt darkness overcome me and thought ' this is it. I'm sorry. I love you Izaya. Goodbye' 

no one's POV

Everyone had finally knocked down the front door, and when they didn't find Shizuo they all cried. They knew they were too late as they heard a gasp from Shizuo's little brother. He read the note out loud as people started to gather around the bathroom door, he got to the end and by then everyone was crying. They saw something that was strangely beautiful. Shizuo died with a smile on his face.

     It was the day of Shizuo's funeral, and they had decided to put his casket next to Izaya's. 

Rest In Piece

Shizuo heijawama

December 25, 1995 - May 4, 2019

I'm not a monster, I'm human too

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