erotic [ h.s ]

The devil (short dirty update)

I wake up sober for the first time in awhile . I can actually see things that are real and not hallucinate. F*ck me , i hated this . I actually cared when i was withdrawled . Things seemed to matter more then then should and so did people .

I sit up , pushing my back against the wall , needing the support . I turn to my left. There's passed out blonde half naked laying across my bed with just her left hand tied to head board . Must've done some kinky shit last night and i dont even rememeber . Great .

I slink my hand into my jeans ..... why do i even have them on ? .... I wrap my fingers around my pocket knife haul it out . I tow the knife out of it's socket , leaning over the blonde , i gash the rope clasping her wrist . Her arm falls but she doesnt move . Her body says ' Im over 21' but my instincts telling me , its a freshmen or either a senior . There was no inbetween . I didnt go for jr or sophomores . They had the most sense . When freshmens come into college they're all for the experiance and senior dont give a fuck because its they're last year , they could care less about any gossip , everyone was below them .

Sweeping my legs over the bed , onto the floor .... wait why do i still have my shoes on ? .... Did even have sex with this girl ? ....... What did i even do yesterday ? I cant recall shit . I know me and jenny went to the burger shack and then .... uhhh ....erm .... uhm , oh forget it , I dont do anything speical with my life anyways .

I head down stairs , like always , frat boys and the sorriety sisters are passed out on top of each other or under each other .

I walking but i dont know where to go . I guess i could go to home depot and get some stuff for my flat ..... My keys .... I tap my back pockets for my car keys . They arent there .... where could I hav-.... Gemma , that son of a bitch ! I must've have been with her last night .

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Grabbing the knob , twisting it  , I throw all my upper body weight at it , plunging it open . The first place I look is her bed . Her covers are all haphazard , like usual but she not in her bed .

Just in that notion someone comes out the bathroom . I look up and there's some ombre girl .... Oh shit , i know her .... what her name again ? .... Uhmm , Tiera ? ... No ... Tommy ? ... Oh for f*ck's sakes ! What is it ? ... TUCKER .

" Hi " Im smiling and now i cant stop . She's so much preetier when im sober .

" Uh , Hi ... ? " Tucker big prussian blue eyes are gaping broad . Her hands are clasped to her chest holding up her towel tightly .

The harder i try to remember anything about her , the further the memory travels . I'm guessing we f*cked before , i mean i had to pursuit this girl . She was ho-... Sh*t . The more i think about me and her  , it get's me excited ... maybe a little to excited .

" Hi " My throat is tightening and running dry , I cant focus with her standing there in just a towel ..... What am I even here for , again ?

" I'm guessing your not mad at me anymore ? " She blinks , taking in a deep inhale , her index finger starts to pick at the skin on the side of her thumb .

" Mad about ? " Im utterly confused . Are we dating ? Because if we were there was no way i was telling her about the blonde girl in my bed .

" Harry , what's wrong with you ? " She throws up the words up harshly at me " Stop doing that ! Every time i ask you anything you avoid telling me the answer . If you dont like me just tell me so , you keep confusing me . I ask you if you still like Lou and you tell you dont know then you kiss me and hold my hand and when i ask to let go you tell me no and then as soon as you see Zayn ask me a question you start yelling at me like im your girlfriend and then you go off into your room with Lou and lock me out ! So the hell with you , now i dont want to talk to you so GET OUT  ! " Tucker's trembling where she stands , crying after every word she manage to yell over her weakening tone .