homecoming is kinda soon and i'm just dreading it. nothing will be as fun without you. prom was like the best thing in the world just because you were there with me and it was so much fun tbh but now i have to go back to the way it was before, only this time it feels even worse. i got a taste of what it's like to have friends that care about you and want to have a fun time with you without being judgemental or excluding you and i can't have that anymore because i can't have you. i'm going to show up all dressed up and alone, wishing you were with me. i really could ask you to go with me as a friend but i don't think you would go honestly. at this point i think you find me so irritating that you hate me. i havent tried actually messaging you in weeks because i'm so scared. you liked my instagram post yesterday morning though. but i know you only go on instagram when you're nervous and/or need to waste time and you just like the first 10ish pictures and then close the app. you probably didn't even realize you liked my picture. i did though. knocked the breath out of me with one notification. i just want things to go back to the way they were but none of that can ever happen again because it's not what you want. i'm not what you want.
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messages i'll never send
Romancei fell in love. it didnt end the best way. recently i've been wanting to message him, but i know it isn't a good idea so i write things out in my notes on my phone and leave them there for a day, telling myself that if i still want to send after 24...
