timidity 》yuwin

6.

Yuta takes out headphones from his ears and greets my sister.

A boy with good manners.

I smile to myself and then it hits me. I start to panic. Why the hell did she stop him? What is happening? What should I do now?

It's suddenly getting hotter and hotter. I know I can't escape. Not when I'm with my sister. I'm sure Yuta thinks I'm a weirdo already because I always hide in my apartment, but If I started running to my flat now while my sis is having a casual talk with him, it would make me look even worse.

What have I done so wrong that I'm being punished like this?

As soon as I hear my sister's words I feel like I want to say that I don't know her.
"You said you're from Japan right? I know it would be stereotypical thinking, but do you like sushi? Because we have some. It tastes amazing, trust me, so if you would like to join..."

Jia Lien you are dead.

I curse at her,
and at myself,
and at the whole world,
because
SHIT IT'S NOT GOING TO END GOOD!

I'm not fucking ready for it and Jia Lien doesn't even bother to ask about my opinion. Of course. Why would she ask me if I want to let somebody come into MY OWN apartment?

Then an idea comes to my mind. Just a few words and I have a solution to this crazy situation.
"Sorry I think it's a misunderstanding. She's not my family. This person is a stranger to me as well. I don't know what is going on either." - scenario I came up with is pretty good, I must say.

I want to make it come true, but I can't let out a single word.
As expected.
It's just like it always is when I'm around Yuta. So I have to give up. Before I'm able to think of something else, this short moment of silence is being ended by Yuta's gleeful voice:
"Oh sure! I'm willing to join you. I only ate some pizza leftovers for dinner today, so saying that I'm full would be a lie haha"
"Happy to hear that you like it, after all. Come in then" she encourages the boy and starts to unlock the doors with a spare key she has.

FUCK.

Yuta's pov:

What am I doing right now?
I really should think before I speak...
Thinking doesn't hurt, while this situation may cause me pain actually.

I could have taken care of my hunger in some different way.
I could have simply gone to the shop across the street and buy a cup of ramen. That would be perfect right?

But now because of my stupidity I'm standing in someone else's flat. And I'm going to eat their food.
Excellent idea, Yuta - I tell myself.
This girl probably offered me to come in, only because she wanted to be kind.

I shouldn't have agreed.
Why did I?

And upon all that now I will have to witness them being lovey-dovey. I wish I wouldn't be seeing this. The other guy seems to be uncomfortable with that too. Well done! I have just ruined someone's plans!

Because of all these thoughts I can't concentrate on what she's talking about. That can be considered rude, since she's the one who invited me here, and I'm not listening at all. I'm sure it's just an idle chatter anyway.

I sit awkwardly on a chair while she starts to unpack sushi.
Wow that looks nice!
I shouldn't be thinking about food at the moment tho.

The only positive aspect of what is happening right now, is the fact that I have a chance to look at this gorgeous boy up close. His skin is light and he has a perfect complexion, without any inadequacies. His hair is shiny and healthy. Beautiful deep black colour. Many people has black hair, I know that, as I see people with black hair all the time. But his black hair is different from all these other people's. I can't even tell why. Looking at him fascinates me. His fair skin matches his dark hair just ideal. He's just perfect. Totally my style.

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An update because I came from school early today and I'm not tired, so why not :)

Forgive me, please, if it is a mess.

Thanks for reading <3
~noebedre