timidity 》yuwin

5.

"Sorry sis I didn't mean..."
"Its alright Sicheng. I know you need time to get used to the situation you are in. And learning a new language is a very difficult thing for sure. But I need you to promise me that you will go out a bit more, because I feel like right now only interactions you have with people are with me and the lady in a convenience store" she explains.

She's probably right.
But I just don't know what I'm supposed to do.

I can't just go to school. I wouldn't survive there with my broken korean. I have started learning a bit over a month before I came here. And since I have came I mostly stayed in my room, so I only learn with yt and some shitty books. It's not like I'm a 4 year old kid, who can just go to a playing field and make 10 new friends in 5 minutes. It's not like I can go to a party, got wasted with some dudes, so later I can call them to hang out. I don't know anyone here. Just my sister, her boyfriend (who I honestly don't really like) and the lady from convenience store.

But instead of letting these worries out, I just smile and tell my sister that I will do my best in learning and finding friends.

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A tiny time slip:
After we both said that we are full, there is still a lot left. Should we just abandon this delicious and definitely not cheap sushi or eat it all and probably feel unwell after it?
Waiter seems to realise our struggle - he approaches us with a big smile saying that we can take food home if we enjoyed it. We both nodd our heads, my sister smiles at waiter and starts complementing the food.

The boy looks like an angel when he smiles. It makes me want to stay longer and just stare at him. Observe him talking. Observe him walking. Observe him breathing.

It's the first time I have this kind of emotions for someone else but Yuta.

It's not the same tho. When I see Yuta my body reacts without me knowing. At the moment, I admit, I feel slightly attracted to this unknown boy. But my body works just fine. I don't feel taken aback like it is with Yuta.

After repeating "thank you very much" eleven times we're out and we decide to take the bus home because we're too lazy.

"You don't have to walk me home, I'm not a little child anymore you know" I start nagging.

I'm a bit pissed honestly. First she's making me live alone saying I'm an adult, and now treating me like a kiddo.

But Jia Lien just smiles at me as we walk from the bus stop to the block of apartments. One of the flats on the second floor belongs to me. And the flat next door belongs to extremely handsome boy named Yuta.
Ohhh I'm thinking about him again. I can't be free from thoughts about my crush for too long, I guess. Now as I'm back I will probably have problems concentrating on my studies because of all these thoughts.

"Hey hey! wait!" my sister shouts and starts running to stop someone.

Oh god.
It's not just someone.
It's...
"Yuta right?"

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I don't even like what I write why am I doing this lol.

Chapters are getting shorter and shorter and I don't know why it is this way...
~noebedre