❝In which two people call up a helpline in order to find someone just as broken as they are. ❞
"Does...does it bother you that my dad's in prison for murder?"
"Well, judging by the fact that I moved away from America to get away from the memory of a...
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Posted: October 16th
Of Shootings and Media
For anyone who has heard about these horrific shootings, I'm going to guess that you feel a little sympathetic. I won't believe you if you say that you don't. My reason for not believing you would be from experience. The amount of sympathy I have received is actually a bit overwhelming. Strangers, who I've never even met, expressing their condolences on social media. And, don't get me wrong, I appreciate that. I do. Really. It's just, it's a lot to take in, you know? I mean, before all of this happened I was pretty much a normal girl, as cliche as it sounds. And it's weird to have the whole world watch and comment on the worst event that I've ever experienced as if I've known them all my life. It's almost like the whole world is waiting for me to break down. Watching me. As creepy as it sounds. And it's not a nice feeling. Because I had the media following me around asking me questions for at least a week and it sucked. Because I just wanted to be alone and think about what happened. Like really think about it. But all I got were these questions and microphones in my face. And it made me feel a bit sick, in all honesty.
But I guess that's just what the world has come to. When a tragedy happens, it's only natural that the world will want to see it. Out of curiosity or whatever. And it can be as much of a good thing as a bad thing. I mean, for one thing, it kind of harasses and exposes a person's personal life when all they want is to be left alone. But, if you think about it, for all its faults, it does do what it's built for. It brings people together. It forms a tight community of people who can support and stand up for what's right. Because, without that media, none of you would even know what happened. And then we could never learn from our mistakes.
But, here's the thing. This isn't the first school shooting, not by a long shot. And it just really makes me wonder. Media or not, how many mistakes will it take for us to learn from them?
For any of you that are reading this, I am entirely grateful. I think that sharing my story with others is what's going to help me move on from all this. I don't know how. I just have a really good feeling about this.
