Last Hope || Jacob Whitesides

Chapter 20

**Jacobs POV**

I ran up to Matt and hugged him.

I couldn't believe after 3 years he was back.

I was so overwhelmed.

I remember the day he left.

I was so alone.

He was my only friend. The only person I trusted.

We've been best friends since grade one!

But when his parents separated he left this town to go live with his grandma in Connecticut.

I didn't want him to leave but I would never stop him from trying to be happier. And I knew he wasn't happy here.

I didn't blame him either. I mean I wanted to leave this state too.

"Jacob I'm back" he chocked up.

"Obviously" I laughed while looking at him.

He looked so different, refreshed.

I envied that...

I couldn't believe he didn't tell me he was coming back.

We have so much to catch up on, a lot has happened for me in the last few weeks...

I went to say something to Matt but I randomly started having a coughing fit.

I couldn't stop coughing.

I'm not sick that's weird?

Mum and Matt looked at me funny.

I ignored them and decided to drop it and act like that didn't happen.

It was just a cough why was I worried, I shook my head and sighed at myself.

**Nash's POV**

I looked intensively at Emily.

I knew that look, she was deep in thought.

Last night I confessed everything to her.

Confessing my feelings to her was scariest thing I have ever done.

I really liked her and I didn't want to mess "this" up.

That is if "this", is anything at all...

I was waiting for her to say something.

I was still looking at her. I was looking with anticipation.

I wanted to go to her, kiss her like nothing else matters and prove to her i'm what she needs.

God I miss her.

We used to be so close, we used to be inseparable...

But then I ruined that.

When I realised I loved her those years ago I pushed her away.

I don't know why I did that, I just thought it was for the better. I'm so stupid.

But when I saw her again the other night, when I saw her with another guy... I knew, I knew I needed her in my life.

"Nash" she spoke softly.

My heart skipped a beat when she said my name.

I softly smiled at her indicating to carry on with what she was going to say.

"Nash, I liked you once but... but you left me! You abandoned me and treated my like shit. Now I've found Jacob and be brings out the best in me. I'm sorry but we had our chance, and that's gone now." she managed to say.

I could tell that was hard for her to admit.

But it was harder for me to accept.

No. I wasn't going to accept it. She's the one for me, and I'm not giving up that easy.

I diverted her eyes and just nodded my head.

I didn't want her to see how hurt I was.

I blame myself though. I've never regretting anything more then letting her go in my life.

And I'm going to make sure she knows how sorry I am.

I won't give up.

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Hey everyone! I'm so sorry I haven't updated in ages but I've had the flu and I couldn't bring myself to writing :(