Where have I gone wrong?
What have I done to deserve such struggle?
Is this what fate has in store for me?
Help me father
Make me understand
Heal my wounds
I have known the role of a woman from a young age
This was surely not the way it was meant to be
This role was forced on a young body
A body that would feel the bruising left by this force
A body that was never allowed to heal
Trapped in a cage of fear and lust
Escaping was never an option
Once was a shock to this body
A body that eventually could not bear the pain
I remember
I would softly talk to you as I lay in my soiled bed
For years I tried to get your attention
You were always too busy
Yet here I am
Trying to get your attention
Years have passed, but you still refuse to answer me
This rosary has always given me hope of your existence
I wonder if it is time to give up on hope
Why should I expect you to understand?
You are after all a man
13/08/2009
