My demons{Jariana/Justin and ariana}

Austin

Ariana~

I sat by myself on the couch in a pair of sweats and a baggy top with a blanket,watching the titanic.I know,cheesy,but I liked the movie.I liked the story line,almost like a Romeo and Juliet scenario,though instead of killing themselves,Romeo saves Juliet.I guess.And,I had nothing better to do,it was 8:30pm and I have no friends.

But I wasn't really concentrating on the movie,or the apple I was currently eating-I've gotta skip a few meals if I don't want to gain more weight-,I was thinking about Justin,and the walk,and that silly conversation we had at Starbucks.I find myself smiling,but then realisation hits me..

What am I doing?

I can't make friends.I can't let anyone in.I can't.One day,when I die -and not from natural causes if you know what I mean-I'm going to hurt people.And I want to minimise the amount of people I do hurt.And plus,I can't let him in because if-when he finds out,he'll just be scared and run away and tell everyone at school.Now that would be a disaster.

I shake the thoughts out of my head.Simple,I'll just avoid him.Although it will be hard,his perfect dirty blonde hair,his white-toothed smile,his beautiful chocolate eyes,his tattoos.His-ARIANA.Stop.

My thoughts were interrupted by two short knocks on the door.With a sigh,I heave myself up and walk to the door.I open it slightly and peek my head out.

Oh shit.

"Um hey."

"W-what are you doing here?"My eyes widen.

Oh shit shit shit.My hair and my clothes and-

"I just wanted to um,actually,I don't know.."He chuckles awkwardly,"Well I guess I was bored and came to keep you company..

My brain says no.

"Oh,"I nod.

My heart says yes.

"Well um,come in."

I let him in and awkwardly motion for him to follow me onto the couch.

"Sorry about my appearance I just-"

"Ari,it's fine."He laughs.

Ari?hm I didn't mind that.

"What were you watching?"Justin asks,looking at the credits rolling down my TV screen.

"Um."I hesitate,thinking on whether I should tell the truth or pretend I was watching some badass movie,"the titanic."I chuckle,deciding I may as well tell the truth.

"I love that movie."He smiles.

"Me too."I nod.

"So do you wanna watch another movie or go out?"He asks politely.

"Um..Well I wouldn't mind getting some fresh air."I shrug.

"Ok let's go."he says standing up and starts walking towards the door.

"Justin,"I roll my eyes jokingly.

"Yeah?"

"Um I have to get changed."

"Right.."He laughs,his face going red.

Aww.

"I'll be back,just wait here."I laugh awkwardly and run into my room.

I slip on black leggings,a baggy grey hoodie and quickly brush my brown hair,putting it up into a high ponytail.I look in the mirror and frown and the girl staring back at me.Im so ugly.

I take in deep breath.

I can do this.Ariana you can do this.You're just going for a walk,nothing major.He doesn't think you're ugly,right? Right....No what if he does...What if he is just trying to make friends and when he finds someone else he'll just leave me..Wait I want him to leave me...No I don't..yes I do...But what if-