My demons{Jariana/Justin and ariana}

Pills

Hey guys,new chappie,enjoyyyy

Song of the chapter-Only 1 by ari g

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"Will you.."

I wait for an answer but it doesn't come,somewhere in my mind i know what he is going to say,but I deniy it to myself,it can't be,not yet.I'm not ready.I'll have to say no,and it's just going to be so awkward.

"Will I...?"I prompt him.

"Will you be my girlfriend?"He breathes out half a breath but holds the rest in for the answer.

Suddenly my stomach feels weird,all tingly.My mind goes blank,i suddenly feel a headache coming on.No,I can't say yes,well I mean I could but....

"No,"I shake my head,gulping,"I mean,no I-I can't."

His face drops,"O-oh."He nods.

"I'm sorry Justin its just.."I get lost for words.

This was a bad idea,me trying to make friends,I'm such a dumb fuck,honestly.

"It's fine..I just...Wow I thought you liked me back.."He looks away.

I feel tears stinging the back of my eyes,tears of guilt and embarrsesment.God.

"Justin I'm-I am so so sorry"My voice breaks on the last sorry and I knew the tears were coming,so I got up and ran.

I ran out of the park,despite Justin's calls for me to stop,I run through the streets,past starbucks,and all the way home.

As soon as I reach my driveway I stop.

What am I doing?

I just ruined the only thing close to friendship I'll probably ever have,and I lost the thing that was keeping me from cutting..

He's gone now.

Back to the good old ways,come on.

Go up to your room,it's just sitting there for you,waiting to be used.

My head was right,I run through the door,ignoring Henry and Pattie's calls.I run striaight through the hall,tears furuously streaming down my face,and burst through my bedroom door,locking it behind me.

Everything thats happened in my life all starts to rush in,I mean this happens every time but now its worse.I havn't let it out in days.

Images flashing through my head as i stumble towards the draw,i manage to fumble in the drawer,get out my blade and collapse on the floor in a heap of sobs and screams.

Bang Bang Bang.

What is that?

I can't concentrate,I;m starting to feel dizzy.

"No,I don't want her!"My mums voice screams through my head,

I shove my palms in my ears.

"STOP!"I yell.

"ARIANA!"A voice calls from the other side of the door.

"It's that emo freak kid."the students voices are whispering in my head.

I start sobbing uncontrollably.

"Make it stop,"I cry,"MAKE IT STOP."

I drop the blade.

Where'd it go.

I try to stand up but I just fall back down in a fit of sobs.

I see a shiny metalic rectangle under the bed,i reach for it but i cant manage to get it.

I cry in anger before scrambling into the bathroom.I look through the cabnits,holding onto the sink for support,i pick out a few bottles of pills.

"Worthless."

"Ugly."

"unlikeable."

"fat."

"emo."

"freak."

"cutter."

"STOP!"I scream.

Then i start to get dizzy,I feel myself falling to the ground,the pills go spilling onto the floor next to me.The last sing i saw was the door bursting open and Henry and Pattie running through the doors before everything went black.

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Hey guys,sorry for short chapter and it's shit as well lmao,but yeah I wrote it on my iPad bc my laptop isn't working properly so that's why it's so short,but I hope you enjoyed it I guess,I'm excited for this book,I've got heaps of ideas for it.

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