My demons{Jariana/Justin and ariana}

Secrets

Song of the chapter:The light behind your eyes by My Chemical Romance.

Ariana~

I was in deep shit now.I couldn't hide it,I couldn't make up some exscuse.It's to obvious.He finally lets go of my arm and and looks at me with sad eyes.By this point,tears were uncontrollably spillinng from my eyes.I guess from fear and embarrsement.What is he going to think of me?Is he going to tell everybody?Will he tell Henry?Will he still want to be my friend?

I wish I never met him,never said Hi.I should have just ignored him,made him thought I was rude so he didn't talk to me again.This is all my fault,I'm so so so dumb.I can't believe-

"Ariana,"He breathes,"I-I'm..."

He struggles to find the right words to say.

I slip off of the counter.

"I know,I'm a freak,I'll just go,just please dont tell any-"

He takes me off gaurd by interrupting me with a hug,his perfect muscular arms secured around me.He kisses the top of my head lightly.

"I'm so,so sorry."He whispers.

And then I just broke down.

I started sobbing as I wrapped my arms around him,too.Everything I've been holding in for years beause I've had no one to talk to,was let out right now.

And Justin didn't even mind.He stood there and hugged me,let me sob untill I couldn't anymore,whispered encouraging things in my ear.

I finallly pull away and wipe under my eyes to attempt to fix my obviously running mascara.

"Ariana,I don't know why you do such things to yourself,but I do know that you're beautiful.And I want you to never forget that,ok?"He whispers,placing his warm hands on either side on my cheek.

I nod my head but inside I still can't manage to believe,even after the amount of times he's said it,that I have any beauty,inside or out.

He sighs,knowing what I'm thinking,he slips his hand into mine and pulls me into his room and locks the door behind him.He lets go of my hand and sits on the bed,motioning for me to follow,which I did.

I sat myself next to him.

"Ariana-"

"I was 12 the first time I cut,"I cut him off,needing to let this out.He sat and listened,"My parents,well,they started having a drinking problem after my sister died.She died in a car accident..It hurt dad the most,he started drinking.One night he came home late drunk as hell,couldn't even walk straight,"I shake my head at the memory,"He walked into my mom's bedroom where me and my mom were watching a movie.He picked me up and put me outside,locked the door,and then all I hear is screaming.My dad screaming curse words at my mom,my mom screaming stop.It esculated from there,everynight this would happen,and then one day it just got all too much for my mum and she started drinking too.."

I finished the rest of the story as Justin sat in silence,rubbing soothing circles on my back as I wipe under my eyes every few sentences to keep the tears from falling.

"...And then I moved here with Henry.Even though I'm not around them anymore,I'm still scarred,emotionally and physcally,but the emotionally out-weighs the physcally.Everytime I look in the mirror and see the scars my dad put on me,I just think to myself that I must have been pretty worthless to him.I dont like the way I look,I know i'm fucked up,I get bullied at school..It's just hard.."I breathe out.

He wraps me in another hug again,"Ariana,you're the strongest person i've ever met in my life,ever.I want you to know that,I also want you to know that you're beautiful,no matter what anyone says.I just wish I could rewind time for you and help you,but unfortunately I can't.What I can do is try to help you now,help you get through this pain.Cutting yourself may seems like it helps,but it doesn't-"