My demons{Jariana/Justin and ariana}

"Mom,call an ambulance!"

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Justin~

I didn't mean it,it just...Popped out.But I did need to know,I'd been such a dickhead lately and believe me if I could take it back,I would.I missed her so much,and that Josh guy?he was such a bad influence.And i'm not trying to make excuses for myself or anything,but Maddie was working her wicked ways on me and convincing me stuff that was complete bullshit.

She looks down,"Um..I-uh...I don't know..Are we?"

"Well,neither do I.."I say,tempted to say well how am I supposed to know that's why i asked you.

"Do you want to be?"

"Of course I do,Ariana,"I sigh,a sad smile coming across my lips,"I love you,"

"i love you too,"She smiles,but the smile doesn't reach her eyes.

In her eyes,well,she was a different person,in another world.this world was full of sadness,pain,hurt and god I wish I could help.But how?I think she doesn't realize I have seen the marks on her stomach when she's asleep,but I do.Oh and my razor under the shower mat?But I don't know how to approach her about it.

"Good,"I smile,grabbing her hand and placing a soft kiss on it.

Ok,that was corny,but whatever.

She laughs and smiles back,but it still doesn't reach her eyes,should I confront her about it?

"I know that look,"She sighs,slumping back in her chair.

"Hm?"i make a questioning sound.

"you're trying to decide whether or not to say something,just say it,"

"You know me so well."I shake my head,laughing.

She raises her eyebrows,prompting me to tell her my thoughts.

"Well.honestly,I'm thinking about you.That smile,it's fake,don't try and deny it.And I don't know how I can help,and it's really getting to me."

She bites her lips and looks down,a small sad smile forms on her face,"but that's the thing,this will never go away."

"It might if you just-"

"Justin,"she cuts me off,"I don't think that happiness is an option right now,ok?"

The amount of sadness that was suddenly brought upon me from that sentence was scary,it broke my heart into millions of pieces that felt like I would never be able to put it back them back together.The girl I love,sitting right in front of me,looking depressed as ever and I couldn't do anything about it..

***

Ariana

By the time me and Justin got back to the house Pattie has made dinner and she just set it on the table-spaghetti-and she scolded us for being home so late.

I didn't mind though,to be honest I was barely listening.All I was thinking about was the look on Justin's face as I told him that happiness isn't an opinion for me right now,it was heartbreaking.It made me feel like it was my fault,like I should just keep pretending to be happy,but the thing is no matter how hard I try he always seems to see past my smiles.

Pattie sat at the head of the table and me and Justin sat opposite each other,I mostly kept my head down while Justin and his mom made small talk,I ate a little but mostly I just swirled it around my fork.