My demons{Jariana/Justin and ariana}

"I've missed you,"

Song of the chapter;She will be loved by maroon 5

Ariana;

And so he did.

He leaned in slowly at first,less then an inch away from my lips as his breath danced across my face in even waves.I couldn't take the distance much longer,so I took it upon myself to smash my lips against his.Sparks immiedietly flew through my veins and my entire body as our lips started to move in a slow rhythm.Without thinking,my mind compared this to a kiss with Josh,and I knew this was 100 times better.

Sometimes I imagine what life would've been like if I hadn't met Justin.It would be alot easier,but at the same time so much harder.He was one of the only things in my life that made me truly happy,I mean I love Josh,and he makes me happy,but no one compares to Justin.

Honestly,Justin was the only thing that made me truly happy,and I missed him.I missed his jokes,his quiet laugh,his lips on my cheeks,his hugs,his compliments,him.But he didn't want me,like I wanted him,and he didn't need me like I needed him.He had Maddy,and I had Josh.

Oh god,we are both cheating right now.

Shit.

I pull away quickly and feel my eyes widen,my lips tingle and I find myself slighty dissapointed that it ended so soon and I miss his lips on mine already.

"Justin..I-"

"I don't know why I did that,"He speaks for me,as if reading my mind.

I slump back into the chair,"I just cheated on Josh,"

"I just cheated on Maddie,"

I find myself sniggering,despite the terrible situation I was currently in.

"What?"

"As if you actually care about Maddie,"I laugh.

"Hey..I...You're right,"He laughs.

"I'm sorry I asked you to kissed me,I have absolutely no idea why I did that,"I say quietly,watching the rain droplets hit the windshield and explode into more tiny droplets.

"I..I missed your kiss,"He admits. i could feel his stare on the side of my face.

"I missed yours too,"I admit aswell,my voice much more quiter then his...

"What does this mean?"he asks.

"Nothing,'I shake my head,surprising myself and obviously him from his expression.

"What?"

"I love Josh,and you hurt me so bad Justin,so bad,"I shake my head,blinking away the tears.

I found it quite ridiculous that it's been months since we dated and I still occasionally cry about it,that's why I was hiding my tears that I would soon let out in another way,because it was crazy and he most likely wasn't the same way.I didn't want him to know I was sad,because he would use that weakness against me at some point in the near future.

"I was doing it to protect you Ariana,I fucking loved..Love you so much,"he corrects himself,"And I couldn't let you end up like my mother,I just..I couldn't"He says,his voice cracking and my heart having the same reaction.

"You could've protected me,"I whisper,trying my best to avoid his gaze.

His silence in response gives me my cue to get out of the car.I shut the door and make my way to the door.By the time I reach the front of the car,Justin is standing there waiting for me,I try to dodge him but he grabs ahold of my arm and pulls me back,

"What if I couldn't have?What if the guys needed me in the middle of the night and..And I left you there and he got you?I don't know how I could... I wouldn't be able to live with myself,Ariana,I would be so hurt.I couldn't let that happen to you.You don't understand how fucking hard it is to sit in that house alone and all night all I think about is you,and how you're sitting right next door and I had considered so many times to just show up at your front door,not caring who the hell answered,and begged you to come back to me,but I couldn't because I wanted you to be happy,that's all I ever wanted,"He says.

Despite the rain pouring over us,and the pain thats taking over my heart,I manage a small smile.

I put my hands on his cheeks,"Justin-"

"I love you,"He finshes for me before smashing his lips against mine.

I find myself kissing back and in response,he slides his arms around my waist and mine around his neck,we kiss for a good few minutes before pulling away for air,panting heavily.He rests his forehead on mine and closes his eyes,"I've missed you so much."

"I've missed you too."

 Josh pops up in my mind but I push it to the back of my thoughts,although I know I will have to deal with this soon.

"Lets go to mine,"Justin suggests.

"OK,"I nod.

We walk a little further down the street and then turn into his house and walk up the driveway.He pulls his keys out of his pocket and unlocks the door.

I walk inside and am hit with a blast of warm air,causing me to let out a breath in relief.

To my surprise,the house was really clean,I don't know I guess I awlways imagined it to be messy,you know,without his mom around.

It must be really hard living in the house with no one,and lonely, i don't know how he does it,and he also manages to do all the chores and keep up with his studies,wow,he's more independant then he acts at school.

"Here,I'll get you some clothes,babe,"He says the nickname a little hesistanty,but nevertheless my heart flutters all the same

I feel my cheeks heat up and I nod,standing there awkwardly as he quickly runs upstairs.He returns with some sweatpants and a small shirt,which I can tell will still be too big on me.

"You can get changed here,I need to go to the bathroom anyway,"He smirks and walks away.

I guess,no one else lives here so.

I quickly underss and put on the comfortable sweats and t-shirt,I look into the mirror hanging on the wall next to me,hm,convinient,and take in my appearence,my makeup is all smudged and my hair is wet and knotty.

I try my best to finger-comb my hair and wipe the smudged makeup from under my eyes in an attempt to make myself more decent.

I hear the toilet flush and out pops Justin.

I smile at him and he wraps his arms around me unexpectently.

I stand there in shock for a little and then wrap my arms around him too,

"Sorry,I've missed your hugs,"He whispered in my ear.

"It's ok,"I whisper back.

He lets go after another minute and I follow him into the loungeroom.

He motions for me to sit on the couch and he goes into the kitchen as I flip through the tv channels.After five minutes he comes back in with a wool-knitted blanket and a bowl of popcorn.I smile as he sits down and spreads the blanket over us and sets the popcorn between us.

"So,the titantic?"He ask.

"The titanic,"I not,giving him a small smile.

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