My demons{Jariana/Justin and ariana}

"Are we still dating?"

Heeeeey hope you like this chappie xx

song of the chappie-All that matters by justin bieber.

Ariana-

I stared at the roof,my head full of thoughts swirling around inside of it.My head was pounding,and no matter how hard I tried,I couldn't stop replaying that moment in my head,it was like it was a broken dvd player,stuck on replay.

Anything that I managed to think about somehow ended up connecting to that.

I had been like this all night,Justin was asleep next to me,It was 9am,school had already started but that was the least of my worries.I couldn't make my brain send a message to my body to make it move,wake up Justin and tell him to go to school,because it was busy with these thoughts.

I don't know how Henry could do it to me,no matter how drunk he was.I replayed the look of horror on his face as the realisation hit him,the look of pain on his face as he layed on the grass in the pouring rain on the lawn of Justin's house.

The look of anger on Justin's face once he found out..

Justin..

What's going to happen when he wakes up?Are we gonna go back to normal,barely speaking?Or are we gonna go back to the way it was,the way I want it to be,But obviously he doesnt want it to be this way,Were we even dating?Had we broke up?Maybe we kinda had,but not officially.

Although we apologised to each other last night,it still felt awkward,the tension between us was thick.I didn't want it to be this way,he was the only thing close to comfort i have at the moment,and comfort is exactly what I need.

And if you wanna know about the whole cutting situation,I've already done it.I found a packet of blades in Justin's bathroom last night and I cut untill my hips were numb.I didn't do it on my wrist because I didn't want Justin to see and I didn't do it on my thigh because I was only wearing one of justin's shirts which just covered my butt.

This is not even half of the stuff that has been running through my head all night,no wonder I haven't got any sleep,right?

"Ariana?"Justin mumbles sleepily.

"hmm?"

I was still lost in my thoughts,so much I barely even realised he had spoken.Or was that just apart of my imagination??

"What's the time?"He says after a long yawn.

So I wasn't imagining.

I just shrug,still too caught up to give him a proper answer.

He sighs and reaches down for something.I can't see what exactly but I'm guessing it's his phone,on the floor next to him and curses under his breath.

"Why didn't you wake me up?"He groans,pulling the covers off of him.

I shrug again,what is that supposed to be my job?

He sighs and rubs his hands over his face,"I'm sorry,Ariana..I''m just..Tired."

"Mhm,"I say,still staring at the blank wall.

I wish my mind was like that,bank,

He gets back in to bed and lays next to me,staring at the roof as well,"What are you thinking about?"

"You don't wanna know,"I mumble,the first sentence I've said to him.

"I do,"he prompts me to let him in,obviously curious.

Reluctantly,I answer him,"Henry,the incident,mom,dad,cutting,depression,school,maddie, josh, you, the roof."

"The roof?"he chuckles.