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Chapter 35: Another one
*Jeon Jungkook's POV*

It's been 2 months since Hanwoo was arrested and I've been discharged.

I didn't have to chance to tell Tae or properly say goodbye that day.

I held his hand for a minute and every word wasn't enough, I could barely say anything to him.

He cried, but with a smile on his face, maybe he was acting, maybe he was just happy for me, I don't know.

But I miss him.

I've dropped by the hospital every fortnight, regardless of the traumatic memories I have, I manage it because I want to talk to him.

I want to see him.

But they won't let me.

I don't know why, something about triggering memories or unstable conditions...I'm not sure what's become of Tae since we left.

Jimin must've left too...

He's never contacted us, he has no way of doing so anyway.

Namjoon and I have been constantly trying to find me a job, and as expected no one is will to employ me.

It's times like these when I feel so...miserable.

Hopeless.

I lose all passion and desire.

I can't have a normal life, a good future, a stable job, Taehyung. I can't have anything.

It's why I'm standing here right now.

Infront of the bridge of life.

The messages on it, the phone booths there...they all told me to go to the one I miss.

I can't.

It only pained me more.

I can't undo any of this.

I can't relive my life or give it a second chance.

I've given up.

So I balanced myself on the rod beneath my feet.

Behind me a lot of cars honked and horned, a lot of cars stopped and people yelled after me.

All the noises, all their voices, it was all drowned out by the water several feet beneath me that violently crashed against rocks.

It felt as if I was missing a train.

A sudden rush of panic, a sudden anxiety as my foot slipped off.

The people that hovered above me, over the railing, it all blurred out.

My the time I hit the water, I was barely breathing.

It seemed like a cowardly and terrifying thought at first, but here, as I fall endlessly but suddenly hit liquid surface, breaking through and being filled inside with water....