When a good girl fell in love with a bad boy.

23. Love is a beautiful thing

JAKES POV!!

I walk from my room to the kitchen where my mom is drinking her coffee and reading a newspaper.

"Coffee?" Mom asks when I rub my tired eyes.

"I believe speed would be the only substance that could seriously cheer me up right now." I sigh. "But, yes! Coffee."

"Didn't sleep well?"

"Not at all!" I say and she pours me some coffee. "Thanks."

"Is everything alright?" She asks. I usually chat with her when I'm drinking my coffee, but now I stayed completely silent.

"No." I shake my head.

"Talk to me." She just says and I sigh.

"I think I'm in love." I say and rest my head on the kitchen counter.

"But that's sweet." Mom smiles.

"No! I'm scared!" I raise my head back up.

"Why are you scared?"

"Because she could destroy me in a second! I've never let anyone have that kind of power over me before!"

"You can't think like that. Love is a beautiful thing."

"But what if she doesn't love me back?"

"I'm sure that she is battling with same kind of thoughts inside her head right now, you are her first boyfriend after all. But I'm sure she loves you too."

"You don't know that."

"I've seen how she looks at you, if that's not love I don't know what that is. And normally a guy like you wouldn't be her type, but still she wants to be with you all the time."

"Guy like me?" I ask and mom just looks at me like I'm stupid.

"You know exactly what I mean." She says and I do, I'm a criminal. Emily deserves so much more! She doesn't really belong with me, she belongs with a man who doesn't do anything illegal and eventually goes to Harvard.

"Emily hasn't done anything bad ever in her life! And you have done so many illegal things that I can't even count them all nor I even know all of them."

"That's true... If I'm so different and bad for her, why the fuck she wants to be with me? She could get someone so much better."

"She can see deeper than that. She doesn't care if you have done drugs or stolen cars! She cares about your personality and she is one of the few people who really can see the real you!"

"What is the real me?"

"The soft, sweet and loving guy. Not many can see that. When your dad left, you became very cold and you never let anyone near you. But then you started taking care of Abby. When you are with her, you are completely a different person."

"Oh..."

"And you are the same with Emily. Think about all the other girls you've been with. Think how you treated them, you have been such a fucking dick towards them."

"Yeah... I was a dick. I've never been like that to Em."

"Never."

"But why her?" I ask.

"We can't choose who we fall in love with." Mom shrugs and smiles at me. 

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Long time no see :D

I've had problems with this 23rd chapter. I had one chapter then I wrote that again and I had it almost finished for so long. Yesterday I read it and I didn't like it so I decided to write this one.

And this chapter I actually wrote a looong time ago but I decided not to publish this one at all because this is so short and I couldn't write anything more to this :D But this fit into here so... 

I will fix the next chapter and you are going to get in no time, I promise (: Exciting things are coming!!