Falling for the Quarterback

{"Relax"}

//Edited//

It's the next morning and Sophia and I decide to go out for a girls day. Claire books us for massages and mani pedi's at the spa place where she works. We get full body massages and I swear every ounce of stress that is in my body fades away. I feel clear and worry free.

After we get all pampered, we go out to grab a late lunch at one of our favorite spots called 'Ruby's'. We sit and talk about everything because it seems like we haven't talked like this in centuries. We talk for hours, even after we're done eating. Even though we see each other everyday we barely get the time to catch each other up with what's going on in our lives, so we take this opportunity to do that.

She catches me up with her and Austin. She told me they got in a fight and I thought she was going to follow up with and we broke up, but to both of our surprises they talked through it and are as strong as ever. I told her about all of my weird feelings with Logan and my lack of being able to accept change. 

When we're talking during lunch, she somehow convinces me to let her give me an 'extreme' makeover. It scares me greatly but I go along with it because she won't give me the option of saying no.

The next day she takes me to the mall, with her dad's card of course, and literally buys me a new wardrobe, as I much as I protested it. By the end of the day, my arms are covered in bags from PINK, NIKE, Calvin Klein, North Face, Urban Outfitters, and American Eagle. I'm beginning to think that her goal was to copy and paste her wardrobe into mine. Her excuse for everything she bought for me was either It's to make up for your birthday or my dad is rich and your my best friend so I can do whatever I want. I'm grateful for everything but at the same time, it's a little much and she has major shopping issues. I think she might need therapy.

Retail therapy.

Haha.

This weekend is exactly what I needed. A weekend with my best friend. No drama, no boys, just us. It was nice. It also felt amazing to just get out of the house. It seems like all I ever do is homework, study, practice cheers, and eat multiple tubs of mint chocolate chip ice cream in attempt to silence the loud emotions that are now in my life. So it was a relief on me to just get out with my best friend and do things that we used to consider normal. I'm starting to miss the clarity and freeness I felt over the summer. My days now just feel messy and stressed.

We used to do this kind of stuff all the time. Back when life was without boys and it seemed like it was just the two of us alone in the world and that's always how we preferred it, or at least how I always preferred it.

I don't want the day to end, because once it does, I know everything will go back to the new normal. It will go back to Elaine, Harry, babies, emotions, feelings, and Logan. And that's what I fear the most.

Of course our perfect day does come to a close, and I end up going back to my house that night instead of going back after school Monday like I had planned. I need to talk to Harry, I can't stand us being mad at each other.

When I get home, I walk in and put the millions of shopping bags on the floor not bothering to bring them up to my room just yet. Instead I go straight into the living room to see Elaine and Harry cuddled together on the couch. His hand is rubbing her belly. I swallow and look away from it, I can't think clearly about that when I'm still fighting with my brother. When Elaine sees me she sits up.

"Can I talk to Harry alone?" I ask. 

Harry looks over at me and sits up as Elaine nods her head and walks into the kitchen. I take a seat on the chair across from the couch and take a deep breath. I don't really know what to say or where to start.