𝐂𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬 𝐄𝐯𝐚𝐧𝐬 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

You're My Happiness (Part 1)

Steve's POV

I sat on the bed that we used to sleep while our arms wrapped each other. The room we had all happy moments, a room that filled with all your memories. Your smile,your laugh,your tears. Everything about you.

Tears were flowing from my eyes when I look at the picture of us. The picture we took on our first date. You were smiling widely while I was kissing your cheeks. I remember the smile you always give me, the smile that made me fall in love with you but now. Your laugh,your cuteness, your innocent eyes and your pure heart. Those jokes you would tell to make the team members laugh. Those hugs and support you give whenever someone is sad. Everything of you become a memory. I lost everything about you in that one silly arguement. I hurted you like no one did. It was all my fault.

Everything was going well between us till a mission/war that made each and everyone of us crash into pieces. A war between me and your brother, Tony Stark. You chose to be in your brother's team, You left me for him.
I was angry,upset and disappointed with your action. We had a big argument and I asked you to give me back the promise ring that I gave you but you refused. You cried, I know all the words that I spoken to you did broke your heart into pieces but I didn't mean to do it. I was all upset and angry on you. I slammed the room door, I didn't even care about you and went to my office to clear up mind.

The next thing I know that I was kissing Wanda. I didn't even know why I was kissing her. She came to my office with tears on her cheeks because of the argument with Vision. She was broken and I was comforting her but how in the world I kissed her. I mean she is like a sister to me. I was kissing her till I didn't even realize that you came to see me with my favourite jellybeans and a bouquet of roses. You use to do that when ever Im sad or depressed. You made me happy when I didn't want to. You called Wanda's name and told her that Vision wants to see her. Wanda tries to explain about what happened but you just passed the information and ran away from my office. You dropped the jellybeans and roses on the floor of my office room. I didn't know that would be the last time I will see you. I did saw your face. Tears and hurts were seen in your eyes. You weren't angry but hurted and betrayed. I called your name but you didn't even look at me, not even once. I picked up the roses and saw a card. " I'm sorry! I will always love you" were written on the card. Tears were running down my cheeks. Tears of betrayal. I have made you angry and upset sometimes but you have never turned me down for another guy. You always have been loyal to me even we used to have fights and arguements. But look at me.

I went to your room but you weren't there. I checked all the places you used to be but you weren't there. I waited for you in your room almost the whole day but you didn't came back. With a hope that I will see you tomorrow, I went to my room.

The next morning we had the mission/war that gonna split all of us. After that mission/war, I wanted apologize to you and explain about the incident happened between me and Wanda. Everyone were getting ready for the mission/war suddenly F.R.I.D.A.Y informed all of the us that the mission/war was successfully done by you. The mission/war that supposed to happen today was declared yesterday night. We didn't get the emergency alert because the system inside the tower was crashing down. You went alone and fought with those evil creatures that created by Thanos to destroy the world. Fury declared that there's no more war to separate us. Everyone was happy and proud of you especially your brother, Tony Stark. Tony came and hugged me. He apologized to me and told that you made all of us proud. Yes you did. Everyone were happy at moment and didn't even realize that you weren't around. Suddenly Tony asked F.R.I.D.A.Y about you. The answer that F.R.I.D.A.Y gave got all of us shocked. The news about you left the Avengers after the mission/war. You gave a letter to Fury that you want to leave the Avengers team. You left a goodbye messages for everyone except for me. Those voicemails that you left for each of them. I heard everything. Your voice were cracking, I know you did cried while leaving those voicemails. First one was for Tony, you said that you needed some time from everything and said that he shouldn't worry about you eventhou you said you will be fine but I know you won't. There one line of your message punched my heart deeply. You said "Tony, do you remember that you used to tell me that "no one will be with us in the end, only we ourself will be standing alone" well it's true. I used believe that someone will be there for me in all my hard times but I guess there is no one for me" those words broke me into pieces. I remember the day I put a promise ring on your finger. It's a day I promised that I will be with you no matter what happens between us but all I broke all the promises that I made to you. I promised that I won't broke your heart but in the end I did.

Then you told him to take care of himself because of the dangers and upcoming mission might endanger his life. "Tony, remember that you're the only one I have now. There's no one else for me,even our dad and mom are not with us now so please be safe, I will come back or I won't but I will be fine, don't worry. You know something? I stole your iron man coffee mug " your voice were cracking but you still managed to give a laugh to hide that you're crying. Others might didn't notice it but I did. The last thing you told Tony in that voice message was "Tony, I know you and Captain Rogers were not in good terms because of this mission/war. I just want to let you know that I have won over this mission/war alone Tony! Yes I did it. You used to tell me that one day I will achieve something, well now I did it Tony. I just have one request,please talk to Captain Rogers again. The next time I wanna see you both together happy and no more fights okay. I'm gonna miss you Tony,take care of everyone and yourself too. Love you big brother "

The next messages for Clint,Natasha and everyone in our team and the last one was for Wanda & Vision that you send them personally. Everyone had tears in their eyes and Wanda felt guilty, she even cried and told that it's her fault why you left the Avengers team. Well, it's not her fault but mine. Everyone understood that you need some time to be alone. Wanda cried when she heard the voice message that you left for her, she thought you were angry on her but you were completely opposite. You said "Wanda, I know you were upset with the fight with Vision and you kissed Captain Rogers. I know you were upset and sad that time. Guess what? I have convinced Vision talk to you again. I just want you both to be happy forever. Don't worry Wanda, I didn't tell anyone about the kiss. Wanda, I just wanna let you know no matter what happened, I will always love you. You're like a little sister to me. If you all need me,I will be there always. Wanda, I know you going to get married in another 1 month, I jist want to let you know that I might not be there on your big day but I have a gift for you and Vision. I kept it in your room go and see okay." Wanda rushed to her room and saw a portrait of her and Vision's and there was your initial under the frame. Wanda holded the portrait to her chest and cried. "Wanda, you might think that you're the reason why I left but the truth is no. I wanted to learn to be alone Wanda, I want to heal all the pains and heartbreak I had in my life. I know you do worry like Tony does but remember, I'm a strong girl you know" you manage to give a small laugh and your voice were cracking. " please take care of Tony for me Wanda. I'm gonna miss you and next time when I see you, I wanna see you both with little Vision or Wanda okay. Happy advance married life Wanda, I love you my little sister".Wanda cried and Vision had tears in his eyes. You were very close with Vision, you used to tell that he is like a brother for you. When Tony is not there, he will always take the role to lead your way. The next was the last one, for Vision. "Vision, you're like a brother for me urmm no you're my brother. I just want to thank you for always being there for me whenever I need someone to talk. Vision I only have one thing to ask you, will you forgive Wanda for the fight happened between you both? I just want you both to be happy as you two gonna get married soon. You used to tell that I'm like a sister to you. Will you do one thing for your sister Vision? Forgive Wanda and be happy with her. That's all. And yeahh, Im gonna miss you and everyone so much and Im gonna miss our stupid jokes so much. So Vision, take of my little sister. I'm gonna miss you all." That's the last time I heard your voice. Vision and everyone cried. Bruce told me that you left something for me in our room, I rushed quickly towards our room and saw something that killed me. You left the promise ring that I gave to you and the watch that I lost it when I was saving in a mission. There was a note under the watch. "Thank you for saving me Captain". The last word you wrote for me. You left everyone with happy memories but you brought ours together with you.

After that,everyone became miserable. They talked less and the bond between everyone no longer strong. It's been 9 months since you left, no one knows where you're living. Everyone tried to find you but they know that you needed time and promised that you will come back once you're ready. Each and every day we see all the clips of your funny act or clips of the funny pranks you did to the team members. Everyone missed you. Tony was sad and depressed. He started to talk with me just because you requested him and I know he was mad on me but he didn't showed. Vision and Wanda got married, Vision came to know about the kiss between me and Wanda. He forgave Wanda and now they both were married and living happily ever. They were expecting their first baby now. Everyone is moving on with their life except me but I believe one day you will come back.

I thought I can live happily without you but what can I do when YOU re my HAPPINESS.

Inspired by bucky_the_muffin