My Lotto Experience

MLE 18

MLE 18

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Fvck! What the hell was I thinking? Why did I ask him to kiss me? Pwede namang yakap na lang, Selyne! Bakit halik pa ang lumabas sa bibig mo?

"Are you out of your mind?" gulat na tanong sa akin ni JM. I rolled my eyes at him after seeing how shocked he was. Seriously, maski ako nagugulat din sa naisip ko. But it's the only way that I had in mind para hindi ako mapansin ni Dan-- Ah, basta!

"Siguro nga. Sa lahat ba naman kasi ng pwede kong pakiusapan, bakit ikaw pa? Diyos ko!" reklamo ko sa kanya. It was true. Hindi ko nga alam ano pumasok sa kukote ko at naisip ko 'yon. I crossed my arms over my chest. Pinagtyagaan ko na lamang na tumingin sa lalaking nasa tabi ko because I refused to look at-- well, him.

JM smirked. "Umamin ka nga sa akin, Selyne. Patay na patay ka sa akin ano?"

I felt myself gaping at what he said. Seriously, napaka-feeling ng lalaking 'to!

"Dude, don't get your hopes up! Alam mo, hindi mo naman kailangang seryosohin ang sinabi ko. If you don't want to kiss me then fin--" his lips crashed on mine.

Napatulala ako. I couldn't move. Everything happened so fast that I haven't seen that coming. Pakiramdam ko biglang tumigil ang mundo ko dahil sa nangyari. JM's lips was touching mine and I didn't know how to react, especially when I could feel my heart thumping so fast against my ribcage.

Napatingin ako sa mga mata niya but they were closed. And when I felt him urging for me to move, I didn't know why I felt weak against him. I felt my eyes becoming heavy before finally giving into submission by granting him what he wanted. I responded. And even if I didn't want to admit, his kiss was...his kiss was...

Napakapit ako sa batok niya, feeling too weak all of a sudden. He in return wrapped his arms around my waist, deepening the kiss. Damn, this was one helluva kiss! And to think that it was my first! Having that thought in mind, I seemed to have waken up from a beautiful dream and I pushed him.

Nagkatitigan kami and I didn't know what I saw on his hooded eyes. Was it...desire? His stare lingered on my lips and I felt like doing the same. Napatitig din ako sa labi niya and I didn't know why I wanted to pull him back so we can kiss again. Bakit ganon? Hindi naman kami totally magkasundo. In fact, para kaming mortal enemies. But why did...why did I like his kiss? 

He inched forward, and I knew right then that he wanted to kiss me again. I should push him away right? I mean, after all, it wasn't as if we've already called it truce because of a kiss. But why can't I move? And why am I anticipating for it to happen again?

Just when JM was about to kiss me again, we heard a voice and that stopped him from inching forward to me. We both looked at the owner of the voice and I wasn't surprised to see Dani-- him.

"Selyne?" takang tanong niiya, nagpapabaling-baling ang tingin niya sa akin at kay JM. Akala ko pa naman ay magiging successful ang pakiusap ko kay JM, napansin rin pala ako niya ako. Damn it!

"Hello, D-Daniel." I stuttered. It still hurt whenever I'd say his name, lalo na ngayon that he was standing right in front of me. Pakiramdam ko unti-unti akong kinakapos ng hininga at naluluha. I miss him. So freaking much. I want to stand up and hug him. Tell him that I also feel the same way the way that he also feels about me. I want to hear his explanations and I'll readily forgive him. But I though otherwise. He already had a girlfriend Kasama pa nga niya ngayon eh. She was staring curiously at me which I blatanly ignored. Gusto ko siyang tarayan, sabunutan at sampalin pero may magagawa ba ang pagiging violent ko? Maibabalik ba noon ang mga panahon na nililigawan pa ako ni Daniel. I took in a deep breath before looking back at JM. The look that he gave me told me that he already knew and understand everything. And I know I had to stay calm. I had to show Daniel that his presence doesn't affect me anymore.