Is this even interesting, am I interesting, is my life interesting, I don't know. My cat is balding. She does this thing where when I'm not home, she gets really stressed and licks herself excessively. It's getting better, kinda.
I'm back home tonight on my own, it's been alright. I'm tired and wish my phone had more charge on it, but I don't want to get off of it.
I've been really tired all day. I was up at six am, watched the sunrise with a cup of coffee in hand, downed my coffee, watched a documentary with my boyfriend, and passed the fuck out for several hours. Today was a very uneventful day. I wish I had money so I could at least drive somewhere or afford a $1 sandwich from McDonald's.
I asked my mom tonight how much she thinks I weigh, she guessed 115. I'm actually closer to 130 so that was exciting. I didn't think I look like I had really gained weight and apparently I don't. I'll always be small. I'm becoming more and more content with my body, it's just a matter of adjusting. I've been doing good with my pills lately and working consistently. So far I don't have that feeling of having to drag myself into work so that's cool. I don't hate my job or anyone there just yet. It's gonna be weird when I have to get up at six am 5/7 days a week. I don't know how I'll be able to do it. Fingers crossed I don't walk out of this job too. I just wish I was more reliable. I'm reliable when I want to be, when it's something I want to do, when it's something I need, or something that will benefit me. I don't really do things out of kindness, I do them knowing they'll have to pay me back.
I'm so fucking tired I might go to sleep soon. I want to rip my jeans off, sometimes if I pull them up to high and have them pressing into my stomach when I sit down, I get a severe pain in my stomach from the tight band pressing into my organs. I think I've really fucked up my body. I've been eating dairy and it hasn't been going well. It's literally felt like my organs are going to drop into the toilet at any moment. I'll fix it eventually.
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Never Humble
Non-FictionFor those whose thoughts are frightening, but not enough so that they became a danger to those around them. For those whose thoughts run rampant, causing chaos in your mind, but still having that slight bit of hope you hang onto that we address by s...
