I really need to allow others happiness. I want to share the things that helped me with others, I want to give others the help that I never received. It's really hard because I feel a sort of bitterness towards people for watching them easily succeed, but I don't think I would ever want to throw someone under the bus. I should want to help people and I'm really trying to condition my mind to think that way. I can't hold onto my anger. I just can't. I have to let it go, move on, and let others live their lives just as I live mine and it's honestly been one of the toughest lessons to learn. I find myself having to calm myself during the day when I work myself up. I'm trying really hard to be better.
I did my makeup today, I'm happy. I've been really productive this week and worked a lot and Jaxson and I are gonna enjoy this Halloween night by looking for leftover candy bowls and smoking pot with friends. I can't find the shirt I wanna wear though so that sucks. I have a really cool lace skull cardigan though that I might wear, that's still festive.
Jaxson's at work and he gets off at nine so I'm going to watch the Nightmare Before Christmas and just hangout.
Life is good. I need to be nice and not so angry. I'm just gonna be happy.
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Never Humble
Non-FictionFor those whose thoughts are frightening, but not enough so that they became a danger to those around them. For those whose thoughts run rampant, causing chaos in your mind, but still having that slight bit of hope you hang onto that we address by s...
