Never Humble

October 25th

Life is so good! I'm really making friends at work finally and have a comfortable grasp with the job. I think I finally feel like I belong and I know my coworkers decently enough. It's really exciting. It's a really good job, I like it.
I'm a little stressed out with money, but Jaxson gets paid this Friday so we'll have money again soon. That's only five days away and I have a full tank of gas so I'm prepared for the week. We have enough weed, I have enough gasoline, I know my work schedule, everything is okay. Things just hadn't been going right. I'm really awful with money. I forget so many things and end up fucking myself over. I forget things so I think I have extra money so I spend it and then it turns out, nope, I needed that money. It never seems to stop. It'd be nice one day if it would.
I took my Prozac first thing when I woke up this morning and I was really proud of myself. I love having a normal sleep schedule and getting to actually be awake for the duration of the day. I work, and still have so much of my day left. It's really beautiful, actually.
I think I'm getting better. I'm in a good place right now. I don't think I'm gonna go to college this year like I had originally planned, I really just wanna work my ass off and make money and feel like an adult for a little bit and get a good grasp of the world before going back to school. I want to see how much I can handle. I might get a second part-time job, that would help a lot. I could just get a high-paying job, but I really enjoy doing what I do now. It'd really upset me to leave, as of right now I don't ever want to.
I'm taking Doctor to the vet tomorrow, he's been very lethargic and low energy lately. His ear has been twitching excessively, more so than usual so it might be an ear infection. We're starting the cats at a new vet so I'm curious as to how tomorrow is going to go. I just hope he's okay. I miss his energy. It's been going on about two weeks now, he's getting better, but I still wanna take him into the vet just to make sure. Something was wrong, I want no chances of it cropping up again.
It's kind of cold in here, I wonder if the heat's just not on. I feel bad, I've eaten kinda bad the last two days. I really need to stop it. I'm gonna get back to how I was doing. It'll be better for me that way. I was on such a great track. I lost five pounds, I've gained back three of them. I drop weight fast though when I'm trying to. I'm gonna do better. I'm gonna eat better and take care of myself.
I bought a bunch of necessities with my employee discount the other day. I got an all body moisturizer, shampoo, conditioner, makeup wipes, a body scrub, and chapstick. I got a multipack if chapstick so that will last me a long time. My shampoo and conditioner are medium sized bottles so that will last, I'm trying a new one that contains charcoal and I'm excited since most products containing charcoal are amazing. My body moisturizer is a Hempz brand original and that's probably gonna last me the next six months, if not longer. It makes my skin so soft. We got a new scent in today though that I wish I would've waited and gotten. It's frosted pomegranate and sugar plum, it smells magical. The body scrub is a limited edition lemon blueberry tart sugar scrub. It smells delicious and makes my skin feel brand new after rinsing it off. I saved $23 dollars, it was really exciting to treat myself like that. I think I made really good deal decisions. I don't regret it. I also bought an eyeshadow pallet and I'm so excited to try it out.
Everything's been good lately. I'm doing better and I'll continue to do better. I'm proud of myself right now. I'm doing good things. I really hope it lasts.