Lifes Fate

30

God, Im tired... no wonder my dad wouldnt want to read long!
"So! You have a... Trish?"
"When was the last time I went for a loooong run? Or a... or a duel?" I look over at Toby "Is it healthy to not have time to just... not do anything"
"Are you alright?"
"I'm fine... just... Ive been trying so hard to make sure everythings alright... I'm just... I dont know. Im becoming less worried about it because its just one more problem... and I dont want to do that" I lie across my throne with my legs hanging over the arm.
"Do you want me to organise something"
... "do you hear yourself? We've been doing this a month! And the list is still growing... organise something?"
He sighs "I know its hard. But your doing fantastic! And it'll get better"
I dont want it to get better... I just need something for me aswell.
"So! One of the farmers has knocked down his neighbours houses and... your not looking interested" Pip looks between us "is everything alright?"
"Amazing... you know. Im meant to be organising a wedding. You know. Trying on a gown. Sorting flowers-"
"All done"
Really! I look at Toby and he sighs "alright... ok... go. Ill see to everything today"
"That's not what I meant!"
"Wow! Trish... calm down" Pip frowns.
"I'm sorry! I just... This is all good and everything. But how often am I allowed an afternoon off? I haven't had dinner before 11 at night! Im getting to sleep at 3 in the morning and I have to be up at 6 just so I can bath!"
They look between each other and back at me "its just everyone trying to get to grips Trish"
"Ok. Well, Im going to do this... tell me if its stupid. Someone else is going to get the towns personal problems. Someones going to handle repairs. If their important enough. They can come to me and Ill deal with it. More... royal commitments I will spend a certain hours a day doing. But then my day is mine... I am a queen. But I'm still Trish"
Toby nods "alright... yeah, we can arrange that... anything else?"
"Yeah... Im! Picking my dress! Im! Picking the flowers! And Im! Going to be sorting my wedding!"
"Do I get a say or do you just want to do it?" I look behind me at Justin whos sat on one of the dining tables "you know... I'm kinda a part of it"
I laugh "well you can turn up... think you can do that?"
He stands up "Gentleman... can we have a minute?" I look back at Toby and Pip who nod and leave the room... "its not their fault sweetheart"
"I never said it was?"
He leans on my throne and stares at me "no you didnt... but they are trying their best"
Great! Now I feel guilty "I didnt mean to be horrible... I'm just tired"
"Then let me help you"
I smile and take his hand "you have enough to deal with"
He strokes my hair back "your not alone... Im learning just like you" I feel my eyes watering but I won't let myself cry "come with me" he takes my hand.
"I dont want to go anywhere Justin"
"We're not going far... come with me Trisha" I dont want to go anywhere "I promised someone important to you that I'd make you happy... you're not, I need to fix it"
"I miss him"
"I know you do... and thats ok. It means your mourning him is going to get easier" he kisses my hand "now come with me"
I don't think I'm going to get out of it. So I get up and let him lead me.

When we got out the palace. I was confused. When we walked through the woods. I was clueless. And when Ive asked him where were going. He just brushes it off "Justin? Come on! Or I'm going back"
He chuckles "will you trust me! Come on!" I just want my bed!
He pulls his shirt off and throws it on the floor "when was the last time you went for a swim?"
A swim... I dont know "with you?"
"That was quite a while ago"
He's telling me! "Well we don't have a lake right outside the castle like you"
"Well about 20 meters that way... is a little pond... do you think thats ok?" A pond? He smiles and comes over to me. Taking a button and unclasping it "thats what I thought"
"I can get undressed"
"I know" he pulls my shirt up over my body and looks over me. Going to his knees and unbuttoning my trousers. Leaning forward and kissing my stomach "you need to be looked after my queen" I gasp as his hands trail up my backside and across the bottom of my back.
"Im not sure just anyone could do that"
His nose trails up my stomach and looks at me "Then let this king look after his queen"  he takes my knees and lifts me. Dropping me go the floor and he leans over me "I don't want to hear you like you was back there. Ever again! You don't stop eating! You don't stop sleeping! Not for anything! Do you understand?" No... "you come to me for, anything! Trisha" I dont think Ive ever been more nervous of a human. The way his body just covers mine. The way he's demanding me. The way he cares "I don't care if I have the weight of two kingdoms on my shoulders Trisha... I don't care! But I do care about you... this is all new to you. I've been doing it every day of my life... stop thinking your alone. Because your not" his hand strokes over my cheek "why didnt you tell me any of that?" I bite my tongue "I'm going to be your husband... Ill find out sooner or later"
Urgh! "Because I should be able to do this"
He stares down at me "you know... what you said... about getting people to sort it out... is exactly! What makes you a good queen... you found a problem. Youve found a way to solve it. Not only have you given someone employment. You have time... you can do this! You've just proved that! Now come on" he stands up and takes my hands. My trousers fall to ankles and he just smiles "well, your ready"
I smile and take his trousers. Tearing the button off and watch them fall. He looks down "you know... i have to walk back in them"
I laugh and run in the direction he told me. I hear him shuffling then chasing after me. I get to the pond but by the time Im to my knees im tackled and we both fly into the water. The cold hitting me but his body on my back making me warm.
I push him as he gets up and he laughs "how'd you find this?"
"By chance... I may have got a little lost on a ride"
"It beautiful"
"Its ours" what? "I knew you'd like it... so I brought it for us... I'm going to get bushes surrounding the entire area... and its ours... that way... you can come out here and be naked as much as you like with no one thinking your crazy" I smile at him and feel a tear fall down my face, and he wipes it away "I love you!"
"I know" my arms go around his neck and his chest crushes into mine and his lips coming down to mine. He bends and his hands take my backside and lift me around his waist "You wanted to wait"
"Ive waited as long as I can" his lips are back on mine. And my hands curl into his hair "let me love you like I've wanted to for so long"
And I don't know what else to do but nod. It was his idea to wait! God! The way his hands run down my body! The way his touch feels against my cold skin. He wouldn't have to do much convincing!