Julie's POV
I reached home and collapsed onto the
couch. I'm the reason for everything.
The reason why my parents got a
divorce when I turned 19, the reason
why Emily, the only girl who
understood me, left, the reason why
Niall's wedding got called off. I sighed
and got up and went to shower. I
stripped of my clothing and hopped in.
The water was cold and I didn't mind
it. I was already cold on the inside. I
was so mean to him.
"I regret everything too. Like the day I
let myself fall for you."
Why did I say that?
I love him. I don't regret anything. I felt
like the happiest person in the worst
when we were together and now I've, I
mean we ruined it. I slipped out the
shower and died myself. I looked at my
arm and sighed. I put my wet hair in a
bun and walked out. I put on sweats
and a t-shirt with some socks and
slippers. I looked outside and saw it
raining. The rain and I are similar in a
way. The rain clouds let the water go
when it can't hold it anymore. I cut
when I can't take the pain anymore. I
walked out the room and ordered a
pizza. While I waited for the pizza to
arrive I turned the tv on and watched
the Twilight series. The doorbell rang
and I paid the pizza guy and opened it.
The smell of the pizza made my mouth
water and I took a bite. "Julianne
please open up! I'm sorry please forgive
me! Julie please let's talk about this!"
Niall yelled through the door and
pounded on it. I turned the volume off,
grabbed the box and headed into my
room. I can't let myself fall for him
again. I love him but what he did to
Olivia wasn't right. Although I wanted
them to break up, I didn't want to be
the reason. And at that moment I made
a decision. It's time for me to leave and
start somewhere new. I'm starting my
life over. From now on I'm no longer
Julianne Marie Parker, I'm Madison
Diana Conrad.