Simply Complicated

chapter 27

"Murat" - zeenu

"Yes" - murat

"It had been six months since we started talking and we haven't met yet " -zeenu

"Hmm"

"Let's meet "

"When ?"

"This Friday "

"Okay we will see"

"You will meet me na ?"

"Ok"

"Yes or no "

"Yes"

I expected a NO from him but I am glad he said yes. It's my strategy to think negative and if something positive happens then also I win and if something negative happens then too I win because I told that it's going to happen .

So planning starts again ,
What should I wear ?
Should I apply little bit of makeup?
Which colour suits me?
In my mind i decided my outfit and I was really looking forward towards it.

Even that thought makes me happy . The feeling is as if he said yes for our marriage.

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Everything was going great and I was very excited as well but then next day comes Murat's text.

"Zeenath , I am sorry but I can't come to meet you"

"Why?"

"I have to pick up Saba tomorrow "

"But you said yes ,Please don't say no now "

"Please try to understand. I cannot come"

"After so long we planned ..u can't just cancel it now.
Make some excuse "

"We will meet but not tomorrow. Plan for some other day"

"Its tomorrow or never . You decide "

"Stop behaving childish and try to understand "

"Why don't you just say that you don't want to meet me "

"Its not like that, I want to meet you .but I am busy tomorrow "

"You always do like this. Last time also you cancelled the plan. And now when we finally finalised the plan to meet , you are repeating the same thing again"

"We will meet some other day . PROMISE "

"Just don't talk to me please .
Bye"

"You don't want to talk to me ?"

I knew this was not about current situation. It was as if he was begging me to stop texting him and he asked it so that I replied with a yes and then everything is over.

I remained silent and left him on read.
He asked again.
"Don't you want to talk to me ?
Reply to my question "

Anger evident in his tone .I replied.

"I just don't want to talk to you now. I am already crying here and I don't want to hurt myself more.
I will text you whenever I will feel like"

"Okay"

Our conversation ended. I was going back home . In bus I was sitting on a seat next to window. Tears were willing to come out but public area isn't a place for any kind of break down. Still tears rolled down through my eyes and I immediately wiped it off.

I tried to divert my mind by watching the scene outside and tried not to cry. The girl beside me was just about to ask but then she realised she was a stranger to me .