Simply Complicated

chapter 30

..And then reality just slaps you really hard.

I was in mood to attend college , but only because of my so called test , I went to college half heartedly.

No , I wasn't prepare . Not for what happend yesterday nor for the test .I had no idea what I would write in the paper.

As I entered college and was about to reach my class. Shruti and hitarth both were standing outside.

Hitarth was quite but shruti stepped forward and hugged me . And the very first question she asked was

"What happend , is everything okay?"

I faked smile and said ,
"yeah .
Let's get in . It's time for our lecture "

I am not so easily open to new people. It takes me alot of time and trust.

"Hitarth you go in, we both are coming in 5 minutes " she said to him

"Yeah, sure " he replied

As we entered the washroom, she again asked

"What happend, tell me . Why are you so down ? Is everything okay? "

Without saying a word I just hugged her tightly and cried . Tears falling from my eyes, she soon realised it.

"Shhh... don't cry. I know this is something related to Murat. Stop crying first . I thought you to be brave.. tell me what happend."

"I cannot lose him because if I ever did I'd have lost my best friend, my soulmate, my smile , my laugh , my everything. "

"Stop speaking in riddles zee, tell me what happend"

I told her everything while crying. She brought her bottle from the class and gave it to me .

"So u haven't talked to him since yesterday?"

"I tried talking , but he isn't online "

"Haa, so just wait for him to come online "

"And see, what you have done to yourself. Anyone can guess that some major had happend. Stop crying over a guy zee. I never told you this but trust me , he is not worth . Not worth of you , not worth of your tears , not worth of anything related to you "

I was speechless, I had no answer or come back for this . And I was already drained so I didn't even have any courage or energy to fight back.

Since morning I was trying to call him, but he didn't bothered to pick it up. Whole day I tried calling him but he wasnt answering.

After my class was over , finally my phone rang and it was from him.

"Where have you been , I am calling you since morning. How come you ignored so many calls."

"I didn't. "

"What do mean by that"

"I kept my phone in my bag "
"And it was on silent mode , so I didn't came to know that u were trying to call me .
Tell me what's urgent?" He continued

"I was just worried ,
How are you by the way "

"U decided not to talk me ,right , then why are you even calling ?"

That's exactly why I didn't wanted to text yes yesterday. Because all blame would come down to me .

"U don't know me right? Do you?"

"Ofcourse I do "

"Then how can u even think that I don't want to continue talking to you "

"Anyways , really your mom found out everything?"

"Not everything , I lied ."

"Ohh"

"Yes"

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Things got little better , we didn't really stopped talking , because for me it was impossible .

It wasn't like before , it was kind of serious but I always tried making it normal but what happend was like a storm in our lives . Little did we know that it would change our life so drastically.

My papers are over but today I still need to submit my assignments which I haven't started yet.

I was so distracted after that incident that I wasn't able to concentrate on my studies. I tried to but always end up thinking about him.

Again today I tried calling him , he not answering my very first call became emune to me but today was little strange. Since morning I called him but he wasnt picking up my phone I even texted him but no reply.

So I just gave it a break and then again started calling him . I know I really look like a despo but I was just little worried.
Worried of not talking to him , not seeing him, not laughing with him and worried to lose him.

I was just heading to my college library to complete my assignment. But before that I tried last time .

He picked up .
"Why aren't you picking up my phone?"

"I was busy , what happend "

"Why are you behaving so strange? What happend?"

"Nothing . Bye"

"You don't want to talk to me ?"

"No"

Rude enough!! Jerk!!

For people out there, this won't be that rude because now days guys are even abusing their girl's and what not and here I was just a simple no , broke my heart into tiny little pieces.

I was trying so hard to get back together but his efforts were zero.
As I entered the library, everyone was busy in their own work , except our class mate. They are the most talkative ones . My class consists of more boys and less girl's and now I realised how much these boys speak.

Hitarth sat beside me , shruti was sitting with someone else. While people were busy with their assignments I started doodling on the last page and zoned out for some time . Hitarth asked me something but I didn't really bothered to reply to him .

Things just happend was just undigestable because of the fact that I knew happy Murat before and the person who talked to me is some unknown stranger and not him.

I was on the verge of crying that's when hitarth said ,

"Our lecture starts soon . Let's have lunch and come "

I nodded because even I felt like just staying alone .

"So tell me , what he did now ?"

On the way to canteen I started crying once again.

He kept quite and passed me his handkerchief . I cried like a small baby and didn't realised that hitarth was just beside me.

In the corner we both sat so that people won't be able to see that I was crying.

"Stop crying over that piece of shit . I won't talk to you other wise."

"It's me or him, u choose " he said .

"What should I do then, he never talked to me like that before and it really hurt like he'll. I don't want to cry but tears ain't stoping.
Even I am done . I am trying so hard to save this relationship but the only thing I see is ,it is collapsing ."

"Move on buddy, he doesn't want to talk to you and he don't even like you . Because if he do then he would be beside you and not away from you . Step out of your fairy land . Sometimes it's not the people who change , it's the mask that falls of "

I cried more to this , each and every word injured my heart alot more. But all I was thinking was , I love Murat. But i should have also thought about it by his perspective.

I wish I could turn the time and end this on the very first day it started of. If I haven't attended the wedding , then maybe I would be in a better position today and I wasn't crying every now and then .

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