MAES POV
so i was just laying in bed on my phone , and Hayes and I have been chatting a little bit but not much at all .. and I get this text message from him .. it was so weird .. something i didn't expect at all
Hayes - Mae you are my best friend and I love you so much .. you have done everything possible for me and my life would be a living hell without you . you are so amazing and I have no clue where I would be to this day if I didn't have you by my side .. yes , I do love you so much , but only as a best friend and I don't really want to date . I am moving soon either at the end of the year or in two weeks .. but I'm going to be seeing other people and I don't want to ever take the chance of letting you down .. you will be my best friend forever and always and nothing will
change that ..
I was stunned .. I didn't know what in the world to say ... no one has ever said something that deep to me .. it was like a sledge hammer to my heart .. like it shattered into more then a million pieces .. I couldn't think of what to say .. what could form in my mouth . nothing came out . I couldn't do this . this was just like my last relationship but it's not his fault . I love him and he ' loves me ' what made him decide to type this? I just can't .. I don't know what to respond . I'm not going to answer ..
* 10 minutes later *
it's too hard not to respond to my lover .. but there isn't anything I could form to say .. it's not his fault .. he has to move . it's not his choice .. but it's something that has to happen .. I'm gonna have to get over it and he's right . distance wouldn't be good and with him gone to another school he will see other people and I will probably open my heart to other people .. that's reality and that's what's gonna happen and non of us can control that . I'm not going to tell anyone .. but I've made a promise I'm not going to answer Hayes tonight . tomorrow is a new day and for things to restart so I'm just going to sleep on it and act like nothing ever happened .. then I think to my self why do I always do that?! , I can't go on not letting anything happen .. I decide that I won't text him so maybe he will think something is really up .
HAYES POV
shit , I shouldn't of sent that .. but it's the truth .. I don't want to be someone I'm not . she needs to know the truth even if it breaks my heart or hers .. but she is my best friend .. I'm shaking what she's gonna say so i look. I sent it ten minutes ago and she read it .. she didn't answer .. nothing .. I decide I shouldn't let it get to me cause it's reality and life isn't that easy .. you know what they say .. " when you love something .. let it go , and if it never comes back it was never yours ." maybe she isn't mine .. but maybe she's just mad cause girls can be sensitive .. I didn't want to play her or whatever .. i truly do love her but they also say "
you don't know what you really had until it's gone " and that's true .. both statements are truth and reality and that's what hits me hard .. I don't know how to feel .. it's now been three hours and she hasn't said a thing .. this isn't normal so I'm just gonna text two words .. just two words .. that shouldn't heart should it? nahh ..
Hayes - I'm sorry
no reply .. another two hours go by .. I can't do this .. I guess I'm gonna have to call her
missed call
missed call
missed call
missed call
missed call
after miss call and six voice mails she finally answers but Mae just isn't her self ..
Mae- what?
Hayes - please don't think this .. it's not how it is .. it's seriously not . you are my best friend and I don't want to loose you but it's probably not the best if we date .. it wouldn't be healthy for either of us cause who likes that stuck feeling? no one does .. Mae please forgive me ..
Mae - Hayes as much as I want to forgive you and move on with our lives i don't feel that I can.. I love you to death .. I guess I should of told you that earlier but it's hard .. I've had horrible relationships in the past and I thought this was actually a real one and that's what hurt me the most cause i don't know how to live with out you .. you are the person I want to grow old with even though I'm only 13 and you're 14 . every time we talk I get butterfly's in my stomach and it's like the best feeling in the world .. I don't want that all to go to waste .. Hayes you don't understand my love for you .. but it's too late now .. and we can't go back .. why is my only question ... just why .. why . why. why . why . why . why. why. I just can't .. every relationship seems to hurt me some how .. I'm done.
holy crap .. I didn't know what to say .. that was so much just thrown at me all at once .. how could I respond to that? I don't know ..
Hayes - and I thank you , I thank you for that .. everything you have done for me .. I wouldn't be existing on this earth if you never told me about it .. you help me through school and everything else ..
Mae - HAYES ! that doesn't matter anymore .. you just friend zoned me . who cares what I did for you cause in reality you don't even care what I did for you . you still do everything I tell you , you shouldn't do . and you always say sorry to " kiss and make up" you suck up to me all the time and I'm done with it .. you have caused too much stress on me . I love you but this can't continue .. you probably have so many girls hooked up with you already and I shouldn't of known that from the beginning cause duh , right? you know it .. so yeah.. let's see different people .. whatever bye .
Hayes - it's not like that Mae .. I have taken stuff for granted and I regret that .. I want you in my life ..
Mae - well it's probably best if you're not in my life anymore .
I was so broken hearted when she said that .. that was worse then anything else in the world . hearing those words come out of my crush's mouth that I had to friend - zone . what the hell have I done?! she knows it broke my heart cause it was silent as can be until I heard her stutter something .
Mae - i-i-i-i-m s-o-o -s-s-o-r-r-y .. w-w-w-h-hy did I say that ?!
that's all she could manage to say before breaking out in tears and this was all over a freaking text message .. it's all my fault so i do deserve to being told the truth ..
Hayes - I'm just so sorry
Mae - ok
Hayes - we should probably go to bed for tonight , I will talk to you tomorrow but this day has already been bad enough .
Mae - you're telling me .. she says sarcastically but manages to crack a slight chuckle ..
Hayes - haha I love you
Mae - night
* phone call ends *
wow . wow . wow . wow. wow... did Mae seriously not say " I love you too?" ugh .. whatever Hayes don't let it get to you .. go see different people .. she can't control you .. one voice in my head tells me and I think that's so true but another says that's the only girl that you love .. you don't want anyone else but Mae .. hopefully she doesn't tell Brady or Brooke cause they can spread rumors life flys .. hmm.. whatever .. I'm going to bed ..
**** note ; I think that was the best chapter I've written 😂 tbh with you I hate writing .. my sister and cousin want me to do this so of course i do it .. 😊❤️✌️😂 ****
