A.N.
If you haven't put 2 and 2 together yet , this story is inspired by One Direction's "Something Great". Maybe listen to it while reading ??
Thank you so much to all my readers : feedback , votes, comments are all appreciated. Enjoy <3
LOUIS POV
I scroll through twitter for what seems like the thousandth time since we'd left Boston after the show. Truth is, I'm trying to distract myself, but it just isn't working .
In retrospect, looking through #larrystylinson was probably not the best idea while trying to forget that it ever had existed in the first place . Fuck. Why do I do this to myself ? I guess I deserve to feel this way , though . I wasn't good enough for Harry , and for that I deserve to be punished .
It pains me to think back to that day . Harry and I had been so stupidly in love, we thought nothing could come between him and I , but we were so wrong . I remember hearing Harry crying . It wasn't his cute crying, like he did when we watched The Breakfast Club - this was genuinely upset sobbing. I knew something was up .
***FLASHBACK***
I opened the door to Harry's room, well basically our room , because I was in there most nights. Harry's back is to the door , and he is hunched over sitting on his side of the bed. Harry had his phone in his hands . The faint noise of rolling thunder echoed through our flat. The cutie apparently hadn't heard me come in, as he jumps in fright as I sit down next to him .
He brushes my hand off his shoulder as soon as I place it there .
"Haz, what's wrong"? He takes my hands in his and tries to look me in the eyes, but he can't bring himself to. Now I'm getting worried. If someone hurt my angel , I swear i'll hunt that person down, and ... My thought is cut off by Harry .
"Louis," . Oh no he used my full name . He never does that . Something is up. "I love you , I love you so much "
"I'm sensing a but, Haz"
"Yes well,but I've been thinking .How do I say this right? Louis, you're incredible. You are more than the the perfect boyfriend , and that's what led me to this conclusion . You deserve so much better than me Lou. I love you so much. You're personality is so bubbly that you make me laugh even when I'm feeling like shit . You light up any room .
You are the definition of perfection, and I hope your light never fades. "
"Well, Hazza, I'm flattered, but why is this making you so torn? You know I love you too . You're more than anything I could've hoped for , even in my wildest dreams. You are the best cuddler, not to mention the sexiest ..."
"Louis, please, stop; you're making this harder .
Being together has been anything but easy , with management always on our backs, closeting us , and threatening our careers. I wish I could rip this script they have us living to shreds and just start again, but I see when we go out how everyone just wants to be with you , and at first that made me love you more , but than I realised that if you were with them, you could finally be happy, you could be public with your relationship . You wouldn't have to be secretive , you could be free for once ."
"Harry, no ..."
"Louis, listen. I think it would be better for both of us if we just ... Stopped all of this for a while. "
I feel I'm going to be sick. Harry wasn't happy, and he thought that I wasn't happy either. He was right , I wasn't happy to be with him , I was thrilled to be with him, but maybe this wasn't about me . Maybe, he was trying to let me down easy , because he wanted to move on .
"Harry ... I"
"Louis I think you should just leave." he says in between sobs.
"Fine. I'll stay at Niall's tonight" I say as tears begin flooding down my cheeks. That's the thing,if he wanted me to be happy, why did he make me cry? if his goal and intention was to make me smile and be free, why did he take actions to make me... Well just the opposite.
***FLASHBACK OVER***
I get out of my bunk on the bus . Liam and Niall are asleep cuddled on the couch . Typical. If Sophia only knew ...
Zayn is snoring loudly from his bunk above me . I would love to say that I don't check to see what Harry is doing , but of course I check to see where he is. The bathroom door is locked and the overwhelming stench of weed is seeping through the door. Why do I even bother checking to see where
he is? He does this every night . Fucking idiot. Paul or management is going to catch him one day , and then we will see what kind of rush he gets when he's suspended from the band ...
Maybe that'd be good for both of us .
Thank you all so much for reading my first chapter !!! I'm excited to finally be posting a fanfic !! I'll try to update as soon as possible . It'd be great to hear from guys about anything : comments, feedback, questions , whatever , votes... Thanks again !!:) - S
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Rip It All To Shreds (Something Great)
Fanfiction----- No, Louis. My angel, I broke your wings , but I can't repair them. I've wasted enough of your time already. We were so happy together. Louis you were the first person I loved. I still love you, and I know you still love me , but I refuse to be...
