Petals In The Wind - a Myles Parrish story

I Never Did

Obviously the first person I called was Laura. The phone was silent for a while after I told her what happened. We were both thinking about that to say next or what to do next. "Damn Mira, maybe you should talk to Myles baby girl. Tomorrow before class. Okay?"
I took a deep breath. The thought of that scared the shit out of me to be honest. Talking to Myles? After what had just happened? Oh my. But it was something I had to do, and I knew that. "Okay bb, I'll try to find him in the morning." After hanging up the phone I fell back onto my bed. I knew the next day was gonna be difficult.

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The next day I walked into school, latched onto Kalin. I told him my plans the night before so he decided to walk with me to school to comfort me. A couple of minutes after we walked in, we saw Myles. Immediately we separated from each other. I looked up and him to show him the fear in my face. He gave me a kiss on the forehead and walked away, he knew it was something I had to do alone.

I slowly began walking towards Myles, shaking from anxiety. Once I was right behind him, I gently cleared my throat. When he turned around, his face quickly turned from happy to mad. Then mad to, momentarily, hurt before it turned mad again. "What?" He barked at me. I took a step back and put my head down. I wasn't good at confrontation when I was feeling guilty.

"I just want to talk to you Myles." He paused and looked back at his friends. They all turned away like they weren't listening so Myles turned back to me. "Fine. Come on." Myles grabbed my wrist and pulled me with him as he walked towards the auditorium. It was mostly empty except for a few people practicing for the talent show. "What?"

I looked down at the ground and started playing with my thumbs. "What.. what happened last night?" I looked up and saw Myles with his eyes closed. He was obviously concentrating and what he was going to say next. "Nothing."
"I thought you hated me..." I took a step closer, so no one would hear our conversation. "But you don't. Do you?" He looked down at me and once again I saw a sparkle of hurt in his beautiful brown eyes. "I never did."

We continued to stare into each others eyes until we heard the warning bell ring. "I.. I have to go." My heart was beating extremely fast and my words stuttered. "Yeah... me too." Even though we said our goodbyes, we stood there for another five minutes. Just staring at each other. We didn't move until Brianna interrupted. "What the hell is going on here?" I swore both of us cursed under our breath before we turned slowly towards her. I acted fast while Myles looked dumbfounded.

"Nothing, Myles asked me to see if there was an eyelash in his eye, I was just leaving." I looked back at Myles and gave a little smile, "You're all good. Don't worry about." Brianna rolled her eyes to the back of her head. "What happened to you hating him?" I thought about the question and laughed to myself as I came to a realization. "I never did." There was obviously a hidden message and I was hoping he caught it. I immediately walked off to find Kalin. I needed to just be held and reassured that I wasn't losing my mind.

Myles always found a way to make me feel like I was losing my mind. Before Kalin could ever ask me what happened, I ran into his arms. "Can we skip today? Please?" Hearing the desperation in my voice he agreed and snuck out of the building with me. I felt so safe in his arms. Myles made me feel confused. Kalin made me feel loved. The fact that Myles even crossed my mind at all scared me. I didn't want to think about him. Yet I still did. Whether about how much I hated him or how much I liked him, he crossed my mind.
And so did Kalin. Every second of the day.

I thought that I would always I hate Myles. I thought I would fall in love with Kalin. But later on in life I just accepted the fact that... I never did.