Petals In The Wind - a Myles Parrish story

Young, Wild & Ignorant

I tried to avoid Myles as much as possible. Him and Kalin weren't on the best terms at the moment and I was dating Kalin at that point. I really liked Kalin, he was a free spirit. I found out little things about him that made me always want to stick around. Like the fact that he dances while he does practically anything and that he sings in the shower. I found out his dreams and goals.

It was always hard though. After the talk I had with Myles, things became... harder between us. There was an obvious lack of hate but I wasn't sure what emotion took its place. That made me extremely nervous. But like most of the things that happen between me and Myles, we both stayed quiet. Myles had his girlfriend and I was happy with Kalin. No one but us knew what was said in the auditorium that morning and it stayed like that. We both had a mutual, silent, agreement that what happened between us stayed between us; not that much happened. Actually, after our little chat, nothing happened.

We rarely even looked at each other, let alone spoke to each other. But I thought about him everyday. And I felt so bad because of it. Even though I liked Kalin, I seemed to be drawn towards Myles. He could pull me any way he wanted to, like the moon and the waves, and I wouldn't be able to stop him. I naturally gravitated towards him, like there was a strong connection there no one could see. I knew he felt it too. I could see it in his eyes when he happened to glance my way.

It was 3 months before I spoke to Myles again. It wasn't my choice, but if it didn't happen, I'd probably be on my way to let Kalin meet my parents instead of Myles.

"Okay class, today were breaking off into groups of two." The class silently cheered, already eyeballing who they wanted their partner to be. I had my sights set on my friend Roz when the teacher spoke up again. "Don't get too excited, I'll be picking your groups." The whole class sighed in unison and lost all excitement for the art project. Mr. Langsly had a way of putting you with the last person on earth you'd want to be with. I think he did it on purpose, just to see us squirm.

I began to nervously tap my pencil on the desk, praying I didn't get who I thought I would. But to my luck, Mr. Langsly called out, "Mirlana and Myles, you're group 3." I tried not to roll my eyes since Myles was staring dead at me so instead I closed them and let out a deep breath. I never glanced at Myles the rest of the class but I could feel him staring at me, like his eyes were burning holes through my head. I wondered how Kalin would react when he found out.

The project is one that was going to take effort inside and outside of school. That meant we'd have to meet up together almost every day until the project was over. I could almost see the danger that held but still I never protested. A part of me was excited. I wanted to break the ice with Myles anyways. I thought that maybe if we talked about something other than my relationship status, we could lose the tension between us.

After class, I smiled slightly at Myles before rushing to find my boyfriend. He was waiting by my locker, as always, with a huge smile on his face. "Hello beautiful." I began to blush and I gave him a kiss. "Hello. So guess what just happened." Like every other girl on the planet, I started to tell him before he had a chance to guess. He stayed quiet for a while afterwards which made me nervous. I told him how I thought that maybe we could all be friends again and he let out a puff of air.

"How can I be friends with him when I know that he likes you? That he wants you. How can I be cool with someone when I know that they feel how I feel about you? If it was me, I'd do anything to get you because you're that amazing. Anything. How am I supposed to be cool with that?"

I nodded my head, understanding where he was coming from. He was right but I still wanted to make everything okay between us three. "Do you want me to request another partner, because I will do it right now." He stayed silent, actually considering my offer. After a while he shook his head no and then hugged me close to him. "I trust you with all my heart." I smiled up at him and then after a quick kiss, we went our separate ways to class. I was relieved because I actually didn't want to change partners. My only intentions was to make us all friends again.

Something in my head was telling me to turn back but I couldn't. Like I said, I tended to gravitate towards Myles. Or maybe I just liked trouble. Either way, it was bad vibes. I saw Myles standing outside of his classroom, which was diagonal to mine, talking to his friends. I decided to go ahead and make plans for our project since he obviously wasn't going to speak first. I walked up to his group and tapped his shoulder. He turned around with a surprised look on his face.

"Uhm, hey Mira." He tried to smile but it came out a nervous mess. "Hey Myles. Can we talk? About our art project." He nodded and walked with me to a corner by the water fountain at the end of the hallway. We decided to meet everyday after school at his house, since he had a big basement and my house didn't. He offered to give me a ride in his car but I declined, knowing Kalin would be angry if he couldn't walk me home. Instead I decided to walk home with Kalin and then drop my things off at home before walking to Myles' house. After agreeing with the plan, we parted ways and went to class.

I was hoping it wouldn't be awkward as we worked on the project. It obviously would be a little weird at first but in the end I was hoping we would depart on good terms. I tried to be cool about it but I was playing with fire, and I knew that. Myles had genuine feelings for me and I was left conflicted and confused. Because I liked him at one point, a lot. Somehow I didn't care about that and I should've. I had already ruined a friendship, I didn't want to ruin two good relationships. It was never my intentions. It just.. happened.

Looking back now, I hate that I hurt so many people in the process but in my defense I was young, wild and ignorant. Sue me.