Exes | Yoonnie

Part 6

Jennie's P.O.V.
"Jennie!" I heard Jisoo shout. "Jennie! Wake the fuck up!"
She grabbed my arm like a savage and shook it agitatedly.
"JENNIE!"
"What?!" I shouted without realizing as I woke up, lifting my head up from my pillow brusquely.
"Oh, thank God you're awake", she said, and sighed in relief.
I couldn't understand what the fuck was wrong with her.
"Jisoo, what the actual heck are you saying?!" I exclaimed, still in shock from suddenly waking up like that.
"You woke me up", she said, rolling her eyes. "You were shouting Yoongi's name as if you were drowning or something."
I started to tremble. My dream. I didn't realize I was shouting his name.

***

"Hello?" I shouted.
I was in a big, colorful, kind of old building, all alone. I could've sworn I had seen Lisa earlier, but seems to me she was not here now. It was just me and the bump in my stomach.
I was stuck in the middle of nowhere as I was slowly going through my 6th month of pregnancy. The father of my daughter had left me a while ago, and I had to raise my child all by myself. Of course, a few friends were there with me as they were too nice not to offer to help, but that was about it.
"Hello!" I shouted, hoping for a response.
Nothing though.
"Hello?"
Nothing.
"This is Jennie Kim. Is there anyone out there?"
I stared at the silky floor and saw a shadow. I looked up at the top of the staircase and saw a man coming down the stairs.
"Hi, Jennie", he said as he looked at me from across the dark room.
"Yoongi?" I asked, shocked and confused.
I must be hallucinating, I thought. He left me. He forgot me. What the fuck is he doing here with me now?
"I said hi, Jennie", he repeated, more insistently this time.
"Hi, uh...I don't know who you are", I said, still in confusion.
I touched my stomach as the baby started moving inside of it. It started hurting slowly, and I didn't know if it was the pregnancy or the thought of seeing Yoongi after all the pain he had put me through.
He went down a few more stairs, till the dim light from outside shone on him.
Yoongi. Of course it was him. It had to be him.
"Oh, Yoongi. Hi", I said, though disgusted.
"Jennie, I'm sorry", he began, his voice warm as the sun. "I'm sorry to have left you like that. I love you. I love the baby. And I miss you. I want to help you. I'm so, so sorry. Genuinely sorry. I miss you."
"Yoongi, I-"
The moment I tried to answer him, he vanished away. His silhouette was all gone, and now he was only a bunch of ash on the cold, solid ground.
I stood there, staring at the ash and hoping for him to come back to me, and do as he had said. But no chance. He was just ash now.
I felt my tears approaching. I tried to keep myself, but I just couldn't. I burst into hysterical crying, fell to my knees and started screaming his name as I cried.
And even so, he still did not come back.

***

Jisoo clicked her tongue as she finished listening to the story I told her about my dream.
"You think too much about him", she said, sincerely. "You need to stop. Or you'll get even more hurt."
"Jisoo, I know. Trust me, I know", I sighed, trying hard not to cry just like I had done in the dream. I don't want to get more hurt. But, as you had said before, it must be my faith. I'm meant to be with him, and even if I try, my heart won't give up on him till he's mine."