The light burns

Part 29

There was a knock on the door. I didn't reply. Dino walked in,"Ready?" He asked softly knowing I looked like a mess. There were extremely dark circles under my eyes. My hair wasn't brushed. My uniform wasn't organized and neat. I didn't button up my blazer nor did I tuck in my shirt. My sleeves were uneven as my faces felt hollow. My eyes were puffy from all the crying. Everything was just terrible. I nodded and grabbed my backpack. I went downstairs with Dino. All the boys became quiet seeing me walk down the stairs. This was the first time I came out of my room since Friday. I skipped all my meals. I put on my white sneakers. My face felt blank. I felt blank.
Fast forward
The halls were filled of rumors of me as I walked through the hallways with my brothers surrounding me. We passed Dino's class as I saw Samuel and Eunha talking outside the class. Samuel seemed uninterested. Seungcheol glanced back at me to see my reaction. I stared down at my feet not wanting to make eye contact. Samuel knows I looked like a mess. He knows I spent all night crying. He knows I was heartbroken. I felt his eyes staring at me as I walked down the hall. Whatever. Don't look back. Just ignore him. I took a deep breathe and kept walking. I walked into my classroom which was already filled with whispers. I went over to my desk and collapsed onto my seat. I Daewhi whispered to me as I banged my head on my desk,"Hey." I closed my eyes,"You know Daewhi, it's weird how people claim they're in love but they fall right out of it in front of your eyes. It makes no sense." I muffled. He didn't respond and I didn't bother raising my head up to check. A couple minutes passed as indistinct chatter filled the room. Suddenly I heard the chair behind me being occupied. Must be Samuel. I didn't bother to look. I didn't want to look. The face that I couldn't ever get tired of was now the only face in the world that I can't stand. My body became stiff and my breathing became slower. I wanted to go home. Go home and cry like I did for the whole weekend. I want to listen to endless playlists of heartbreaks and stay in my pajamas all day. I didn't want to be here. Sitting in front of my ex with my head down. Tears slowly flowed out of my eyes silently. I slowly covered my mouth with my hand trying to not make a sound. I hated this place. I miss the past. I miss the late night conversations with Samuel where we just lied in my bed telling each other conspiracies. Apparently that must've meant nothing to him. I must've been a burden. It was already the middle of class. I didn't bother listening. Not like anyone cared.
Samuel's POV
Yuna didn't pick up her head at all. I was anxious and worried throughout the lesson. I just wanted to hold her hand and skip class. I knew she was crying. Her shoulders slowly shake when she cries. It felt as if someone shot an arrow straight to my heart. Not Cupid style though. "Okay, so X equals y squared divided-" Suddenly, Yuna stood up with her head still down. The whole class stared at her. "Yuna, take a seat. Class isn't over yet." The teacher consoled. Yuna grabbed her backpack and swung it over her shoulder. Her face was still covered by strands of her hair. Her head was still facing the ground. She walked towards the door as she ignored everyone,"Yuna. Yuna! Come back here!" The teacher yelled. She didn't listen one bit. She opened the door and slammed it shut behind her. I wanted to follow but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to it.
Yuna POV
I slammed the sliding door shut and walked down the hallway. I just wanted to flick everyone off. I wanted to be away. I can't go home. Mother would kill me. I looked outside. I don't have any money for transportation. Whatever. I headed up the stairs in the back of the school that lead up to the rooftop. It was breezy and cold. I didn't mind. Who cares? I sat down on the edge of the roof letting my legs hang. I looked down at the height between me and the ground. If only I could-"Wishing you can just end everything?" Minghao said as he sat next to me. I nodded kicking my legs slowly. He stared out into the scenery,"Unfortunately, we're immortal to most things. But I wonder how it feels to die. To have that feeling that you're done. You won't experience happiness nor sadness anymore. You won't see your family anymore. You'll just die." Minghao confessed as he ran his hand through his hair. I admired Minghao to be honest. He seemed so understanding. He seemed so open minded but so intellectual and down to earth. He's different. "Still heartbroken over Samuel?" He asked quietly. I shrugged. It's hard to admit that you're heartbroken over someone. Minghao wrapped his arm around my shoulder letting my head rest on his shoulder,"I understand. Once someone lies to you or betrays you, you question and doubt everything. I really believed Samuel was a good guy though." I sighed loudly,"Me too. He seemed different. He did all these things for me and said all these words. I guess he never meant them." I looked down at my lap as Minghao tightened his grip,
"Who knows if he actually didn't mean it?" Minghao whispered. "What do you mean?" I asked not understanding his point. He took a deep breathe,"I don't think he'll ever do that. By the way he talked about you, protected you, looked at you, I don't think he's the type of person to do that. Also I've never seen him interested in any other girl. Actually any one person in general other than you. He rejected at least five girls in my grade. And they were pretty hot." I shrugged. "People change." Minghao didn't want to reply but he was urging to. I stared into the sky staring at the stars. "What do you think my father and your mother are doing?" I asked quietly as we both looked into the sky. He hummed,"Hm. Probably close to a divorce to be honest. But I hope they're happy in some sort of way." I looked up at Minghao. He always wished the best for people no matter how cruel or rude they were, he always wanted the best for them. He didn't define someone by their actions. "What?" He asked with a simple smile. "Nothing. I just can't believe you're my brother." I whispered as I lied my head against her shoulder. "I love you, Minghao." I said softly as I slowly dozed off as tears escaped my eyes. I don't know why I was crying. I was just overwhelmed. If I was human, he would've saved me from jumping.
Minghao's POV
I stared at my little sister heartbroken over a boy. My heart tightened and squeezed into a painful knot. "I love you, Minghao." Yuna whispered as she cried softly falling asleep. I placed my hand over hers. I'm sorry, Yuna. "I love you too, Yuna."