GHOUL / KANEKI KEN

V.

you've always loved books, and the feelings they give you.
but also how they feel in your hand when you hold them delicately, or the way the pages feel when you flip to the next. the overall feeling of books gives you love.

you know what books you like, and the books you don't like. you've never really been interested in the kind that kaneki likes, but then again you've never really given them a chance.

so you going into the mystery/horror section of the bookstore felt so unfamiliar, and almost as if you were in a different world.

your eyes grazed through the selves, passing each book title per second. you had no clue what you wanted to read or what book would be most fitting for a person who had never read a book like this before.

"hmm," you keep looking, wondering what to choose. there were so many, it started to become overwhelming.

"hard choices, hm?" an unfamiliar voice spoke.

you looked to your right, seeing a interesting man beside you. his smile was mysterious and sly, and his hair was amethyst. and yet he looked as sharp as fuck, a red buttoned up shirt with a red and purple striped blezer, and a matching bottom.

"oh, i was just looking," you lied feeling embarrassed for some odd reason. and you decided then to just walk away, not wanting to bother the man.

"well i'd recommend 'the metamorphosis' by franz kafka," he said just as you started talking a step.

you glanced at him, seeing he already had the book in his hands. you really didn't know what to think.

"here, have a look," he said passing it to you. you took it from him, your hand skimed the cover. "enjoy," he added before wandering away.

"thanks," you quickly responsed, hoping that he heard you.

you glanced to the book cover again, you wondered if kaneki had read this. and if so, did he like it? would he have recommended this?

you decided that this book was enough to try out, and left the section and moved on to a area you were more familiar with.

you check out the new manga's that were out, even a little yaoi and yuri. next was just regular books, but more to your liking, such as romance and maybe some fantasy. and then lastly were movies.

you never keep up with movies anymore, for one you were to focused on university, and if you have time you worked on your book.

you had been working on this book for a while. the idea had been created back in high school, your last year. when you first came up with it, you were so damn motivated and inspired. but after some time, it just started decreasing. you became busy with other important things, and the project just became a side thing.

you felt bad about it, so this year you picked back up on it. wanting to improve and change things that now seemed stupid.

just as you started towards the checkout, you passed the poetry section. surprised to see the man from earlier in the area. he was flipping through the pages from "milk and honey."

you found it interesting, a man liking horror but also poetry. what a open mind he seemed to have. to like something so damn dark and something so emotionally powerful. you inspired to be like that.

you realized you were staring too long, and headed to the checkout. you were excited to start reading the book, yet a little nervous about how much dark themes would be in the book.

you pushed the thought back, saying this was to get to know kaneki better. try to understand him more, maybe to make a conversation with him about it.

as you walked home, you hugged the book. you really wanted to know more about kaneki, he was always so intriguing. and now after his little disappearance he seemed to be like that more and more. yet that's not all you liked about him, there was so much more. like the little things about him, since you were always observant and introverted, you realzied things about him.

even the thought of him had your heart feel all warm and fuzzy. you really wanted to know him, even if it were for a little, even if he were to disappear again.

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i'm sorry this chapter was shitttt, i'll do better next time 😳♡♡♡

dedicated to 03MOONCHILD