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I will start this with a big trigger warning. I will be discussing suicide and the first two paragraphs are real life events.
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Three years ago my cousin Drew was found in his apartment. He'd sent out text messages to his closest family members apologizing wishing he had been a better person, son, and father. Shortly after he shot himself.
This past week my cousin and his wife were frantically searching for their son. He wasn't but a year younger than me. They sent out a search party consisting of them and their eldest. They found him hanging from a tree in a local park.
Two young men. Their whole lives ahead of them. Both with young children and so much love around them. But that just isn't something they could see. Unfortunately some people don't realize how much they love someone until they're gone. They don't realize just how much some needs help.
I could never blame them for what they did. They hurt and saw it as their only way. You hear so many people calling those who have committed suicide week and selfish. I've even heard someone say the day of my cousin's death "forget suicide hotlines. If he had god he would never have done that."
I even hear that those who end it themselves will not be accepted by god in heaven.
My aunt questioned weather her son would go to heaven or hell. My grandfather, a pastor, said this "he wasn't in the right mind. God does not judge those who make this decision."
I understand, and even though I whole heartedly believe those who do will be accepted into your gods arms, this isn't the only way. You may struggle. You may hurt. It my seem pointless and like nothing else matters. But someone loves you. I love you. You may not think it but you mean the whole world to someone. They may not show it. They may not even fully realize the way they feel but they do.
It you're hurting speak your mind. Speak your heart. You shouldn't ever have to keep the pain inside. Please talk to someone before it's too late. You matter all too much to end it all.
Someone will listen. I will listen. Your life matters. You may doubt it but I promise it does. I will be here for you if you need me. Always know that.
Here is a link to a suicide hotline via text: https://www.crisistextline.org
Here is the national suicide hotline phone number(USA): 1(800)273-8255
This link has a few hotlines for several other countries: http://ibpf.org/resource/list-international-suicide-hotlines
I encourage all of you struggling with this to reach out. To me. To the above links. To your closest person in your life.
