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Seventeen: Woozi

ParkKristyn

It's been three years since I gave up my best friend Jihoon, better known as Woozi. I wanted to be with him and I knew he felt the same. But I just loved him too much. So I refused to be with him and leaned on our mutual friend Wonwoo for support. In turn Jihoon thought that we were together. I hated that was what he concluded but at the time it seemed like the better choice.

Four months ago a miracle happened and ever since Wonwoo and I had been meaning to "break up". It would be good for both of us but we'd used one another as a crutch so long it was hard to let go. I never felt for him what still burns in my heart for my old friend. It's just all the things he got me through were hard to forget.

I fixed the shiny hair on my head. No single lock could be out of place. I put on my makeup next. Light amounts of concealer and foundation were applied and a blush made me look more alive. I put on a black skirt and Aqua blue blouse. They looked a little big but it didn't matter.

I knocked on Wonwoo's door. It's high time this ended. We both knew it.

The soft pale face that greeted me was a surprise.

"Kristyn?"

"J-Jihoon...? Is Wonwoo home?"

His happy demeanor fell away and his eyes wandered to the ground at the mention of the others name. I cursed myself for doing that.

"Not at the moment," he looked back up at me and gave a small weak smile, "but you can wait here if you like."

"Okay." I smiled and followed him inside.

He shoved his hands in his pockets as he lead me through the apartment. We stopped in the kitchen and an awkwardness clouded the air. He coughed trying to break our silence.

"So... Would you like a drink?"

"Sure." I fiddled with my hands as he nodded his head.

He started walking towards me. My heart was going crazy and my stomach was doing summersaults. He was just now right in front of me. With hands still in his pockets he looked up from the floor.

"Uh.. The fridge." He used his eyes to indicate it was right behind me.

"Sorry," I quickly moved out of the way.

"So... Was today date night?" Because of the door all I could see was his hand and his legs.

"Yeah," I lied, "he must have forgotten."

His hand gripped tighter to the door handle and he let out a sigh.

"What will it be? Soju or Tequila?" He asked pulling out two large bottles.

"Neither! Why would I drink that?"

"That bastard never seems to remember anything or give a shit about you for that matter." He grimaced setting down the soju and settling for the Mexican favorite.

He didn't even bother to take down a cup. He unscrewed the  cap and immediately took several large gulps. He seemed so unfazed by the burning he should be feeling. How often does he do this that there is no reaction whatsoever?

"What?"

"N-nothing... It's just-"

"No no no! I don't even want to hear it because I already know!" He slammed the bottle on the counter top and turned his back to me. I won't lie he was scaring me just a little. "You think he's just so perfect. The best thing ever! Better than everyone! Better than me! But you know what? He's not! He is far from perfect and you can't even see it!"

"I've never said that. And Wonwoo isn't a bad guy you know that!"

"How do you know what I know huh? You have no idea what I know. I know more than you think or care to realize."

"Oh really!? Just tell me what you think you know!" I turned around and started walking to me. He had an anger in his eyes I hadn't seen before.

"I know that he's changed you! Ever since you started dating him everything has changed. You don't ever talk to me, you try your best not to even look at me, you don't laugh as much, your always trying to doll yourself up, you lost so much weight it's almost unhealthy among other things! Your laugh is the most beautiful sound in the world. You are beautiful even without makeup and I can't count a day in the past three years you haven't worn it. And if he loves you. If he ever loved you, you wouldn't have to do this to yourself!"

"J-" he cut me off before I could speak.

"Damn it I'm not done yet! Can't you see he's taking advantage of you!? He brings you around his friends and family like your some sort of trophy! You're his little good girl he can just parade around the public and then He's off behind your back sleeping around with girls who are not even half the woman you are! He's my best friend but I hate him. I hate him to my very core because I can't stand the way he treats you and I can't stand that you're stupid enough to fall for his tricks! I thought you were smarter than that! I guess I was wrong because you can't even see how I feel about you. You can't see how much I love you because your blinded by the very idea of him." He pounded his fists against the wall refusing his tears. "How could you love him and not me!"

"You think I changed for him!? You think I love him!?" I screamed. The senseless rage fueled all of what I was about to let go, "I love you with everything that I have! I didn't want to hurt you! But damn it if you think I would change myself like this!" I screamed showing him my scrawny limbs, "for a boy? For Wonwoo? Hell no! I got cancer Jihoon! I was going to die and I didn't want you to get hurt after I died!"

"What?"

I took a hand full of hair and yanked the wig off. The patches already started to fill in.

"I was going to die and I didn't want you to get hurt."

His mouth hung open and no more violent words spilled out. Tears blurred my vision but still I could see the ones starting to fall down his cheeks.

"How-"

"I was diagnosed three years ago. Every day I thought I was gonna die. I was scared to die but I was more afraid of letting you have me just to lose me. I figured I needed less reasons to fight what nature intended."

"B-but.... You...." He tried looking up at me but he just couldn't.

"Wonwoo was just there to help me die and to protect you. We never dated." I lifted his head so our eyes could meet. We mirrored one another's pained expression.

His hands trapped my face and his eyes searched mine.

"Kristyn..." He didn't know what to say and neither did I. So much had been reviled from the both of us it was hard to process. "I love you Kristyn." He whispered.

He pulled me close and we let our lips say everything we couldn't. The kiss was deep and intense and everything I ever imagined. When he slowly pulled away my lips tingled eager for more.

"I love you too, Jihoon."

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Based this one off of Haru Haru by Big Bang. Hope you liked it Kristyn. For a better experience listen to How Do I Breath- by Mario while you read. Just a suggestion lol :) oh And the miracle is no more cancer so Yay!